Demons-
(Verse1)
Sometimes I can’t find words to explain myself,
All these thoughts telling me to kill myself,
I don’t even know how to feel myself,
I don’t want to admit it but I need some help,
Therapy isn’t working I need self help,
My anxiety is crushing me,
I’m in pain man don’t you see,
Just shut the door and let me be,
Im gonna be ok I got ecstasy,
All my demons they envy me,
They won’t let me go they won’t let me free,
They won’t let me go they won’t let me free,
(Chorus)
I don’t wanna die
I don’t wanna die noo
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Sometimes I can’t find words to explain myself…
All these thoughts telling me to kill myself…
I don’t even know how to feel myself…
I don’t want to admit it but I need some help…
Therapy isn’t working I need self help…
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