I want to die. I am a burden to all those around me. I was just told that I ruined my mothers life. And I don’t want my own life. I feel worthless and even more worthless that I have never gotten even close to succeeding in killing myself. Don’t have the courage.
I know that I am crazy and it makes me feel crazier. Today was supposed to be a happy day where my mom and I would go dorm room shopping for supplies. I went in with a clear vision of my future. For anyone that may not have read my other posts, college is my chance to escape everything. I have been suicidal throughout my entire life and college is a chance to put some space in between my family and myself to hopefully focus on fixing myself.
The shopping trip went to shit when my mom kept negating or changing all my dorm ideas […]
Hey guys, so I want to get myself into some sort of therapy and I was wondering what everyone thought about it. I guess I am afraid that the lady I talk to will think I am crazy (maybe I am) or will be like unable to understand. I don’t want to go to therapy and have the last not understand me.
I was wondering if anyone had any experiences with therapy (positive or negative). I need help but don’t know whether to find it within or with therapy.
I just need to know that someone understands so I don’t feel even more alone.
I have pretty much been suicidal at different parts in my life since I was 12 years old. (so its been 6 years)
I feel crazy and like I can’t control myself. I know I will never commit suicide because I am too scared. Not scared of death or pain but of failing. I wouldn’t want to fail and still be on earth. That concept seems pretty difficult to explain so I don’t expect anyone to understand that.
Most of all I feel crazy. If you guys knew me you would never […]