I need advice on dissociation and depersonalization.
SweetEmotions
I wrote this about my family. My mom and dad act normal and nice when my grandma is here but when she’s not my mom makes living at home a living hell. And I’m too young to move out.
DEAR GRANDMA
Hey little brother,
What’s it like to be the baby of the family?
To be the one they love.
Hey mom,
What’s it like to know your girl hates you?
To know she’s sad because if you.
Hey dad,
How’s it feel to be the weak one?
Because you’re the abuser and the ignorant.
Grandma, you think we’re a normal family.
You haven’t seen reality.
You […]
I wrote this when I had cut myself the night before even though my girlfriend didn’t want me to. She didn’t know yet that I’d cut when I wrote this:
Sitting all alone
The emptiness inside me threatens to consume me.
The sting in my open wounds keeps me feeling
The bleeding doesn’t hurt
It’s knowing I made you cry that burns
Tears ooze out of the corner of my eyes
Acid burning my skin
I know I let you down
I know you’re angry
At least you would be if you knew
I’m sitting here alone and bleeding.