Its odd really, I feel so numb to almost everything half the time and the other half I feel things so deeply I burts out in tears, and I try to cure both with a drink, I don’t understand, I get the numbness and all I want is to feel again and feel the world and once my feeling return I want to shut it off and not feel a thing from all the sadness and pain.
~SN
I am in an emotionally abusive relationship but I’m also in love with the abuser. Im trapped and scared and Ive become depressed as well, Ive been thinking about how death would make it easier because of all the other stress I have and its not like I have a friend who would care because I have 0 friends, but right now Im hanging on for family and Im scared of what my relationship is going to do to me because I love this person so much.
~ SN
Today I went to my same old school followed the same routine with the same people who wouldn’t care if I never showed up again. I listen and talked while I was ignored again and no one even noticed when i didn’t show up to lunch. I don’t belong where I am and I feel so alone. Nothing matters to me anymore, not sports, not running, not being social, I used to love to go out but now i just want to stay in bed all day and shut my brain off. The only reason Im still fighting is for my little sister […]
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