But you’re just a mistake
Please give me my life back
Please give me my life BACK
GIVE ME MY LIFE BACK
GIVE ME MY LIFE
If this is what I call home
why does it feel so alone??
I’m so overwhelmed
Just give me an exit
LET ME OUT
Part of me enjoys the fact that I’m not really important to anyone, there’s less liability.
Part of me wishes someone cared
I think I’m contempt with the way things are
I’m still a lost boy
When I see people with such enthusiam, energy and success. It only makes me feel less important and more suicidal.
Holy fuck im so alone
This hole is getting deeper by the day
Digging for the words to say
So I
Can put things in perspective
Somewhere along the line I lost my way
Everything gets torn and frayed
You can put me in my place
But I’ll never know where I stand
These words you should always remember…
To you, my heart I surrender
The people around me have so much passion and motivation…
I’m so weak compared to others in the world.
I wish I had the strength to not care so much about friendships that move on.
I can’t make it on my own but noone cares enough to ride the journey with me.
Why should they?
Cause in the end we all end up alone …
It’s only 7 am…. I just woke up and already I want to cut…
I want out, I know I’m not wanted but at the same time my suicide would only hurt those around me.
Such a dark, dangerous substance.
The only thing that gets me through the night though.
I could write a novel about the overwhelming thoughts that make me wish I were never born.
But I’m way too tired to do that, and there’s no point anyways
Depressed ever since, and they say chemo will cure you.
Cancer is a *****
Its at the point where I can’t even put what I am feeling into words.
I am too overwhelmed to try anyways.
Everything I do is forced.
If I try to do something I want to do there will always be a reason I cannot do it.
I do the things I do so that I can keep the qualities I enjoy in life, and the fear of humiliation if i dont follow the worlds agenda for me
This has been going on for so many years its hard for me to believe when people say it will get better
Which sucks because I want to
I let myself be too friendly with people to the point where they feel some even slight amount of care for me… I need to learn to keep people out of my life so that my end will not hurt so many people… I wish everyone who cared about me would just forget I exist so I can leave in peace
How it should be…