I often wish I would get a life threatening illness and just wouldn’t wake up. I even took up smoking just to increase my chances of lung cancer. Failing that I hope to get into a huge accident, or a situation I wont come out of alive. I am too scared to do anything to myself, I think of all the people I would hurt on my way out of this hell hole and I can’t do it. If there was a medical or accidental reason for death I could be out of here and not bring shame on the family or my friends. They […]