I was sucidal, fast forward a few years, ive gotten over it
I thought id let you know a lil’ bit more about me so i told i once felt like killing myself
I was so shocked when you told said
“suicide is wrong, it’s selfish; why cant you be more thoughtful?”
You made me feel as though i chose to be suicidal
& i should be ashamed and punish myself for it
Why cant you understand
I thought you were trustable
I
Thought
You
Were.
It’s okay to feel sad.
It’s okay to feel unwanted and lonely.
It’s okay to feel tired.
Afterall, pain is only temporary, right? And so is everything. Nothing lasts forever. Things only last long enough.
<3 y'all
Just because you’re willing to sacrifice for someone else doesn’t mean that they will do the same for you.
I learnt that the hard way.
And it hurts.
I think you hate me I’m sorry
I hurt you I am sorry
I know you hate me and you hate me and hate me a lot
I know you want me to die yes I will
sorry
I know you hate me sorry for being such an irritating *****
sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry
I love you.
Take me away.
liar liar
pants on fire
nose is long as a telephone wire
“If a picture paints a thousand words, then why can’t I paint you?”
– Bread
I’m a weirdo
what the hell am I doing here
I don’t belong here
Because it’s something that we wanna do, and when we’ve finally done it, it’s like an Achievement Unlocked so yay we feel satisfied.
Yayyyyyyyy
must resist…do…not..cut…must…not…cut…
Ouchie.
I will eat you alive
I will eat you alive
there’ll be no more lies
there’ll be no more lies
-Radiohead
I guess this is the way I do it:
1. Push everyone away from me because I don’t deserve their love. I’m too unworthy for it.
2. Run into someplace where no one can find you and have no ways of contacting you. i.e., isolate yourself. Keep your phone somewhere and try to forget about it. Or switch it to Airplane mode. Yeah.
3. Hide. Remain in your bubble. A quiet bubble floating in the sea of noises.
So much for trying to distract yourself from the truth. So much for trying to forget and run away from it. So much for trying to create excuses.
Stop trying to […]
And to think that I actually believed you.
You said you wanted me, just me. Now you’re changing, and you no longer want me anymore. Yeah. Leave me. From the beginning, I’ve never left you at all. If I do so it must be because you’re busy. Or I need time alone. You left me. You said I will leave, but now you’re the one leaving. Yeah go on. I like how you lie. Yeah. Go on. Pain is addictive. Hurt me more if you can. In this relationship I’ve never pretended before. I sincerely love you with all my heart. Hah. Who knows, […]
That sharp stab of betrayal. From someone you thought that knew how to differ from right and wrong and what was good and evil. Now you don’t know who to trust anymore. It’s painful. It hurts. Ouch.
I don’t know how to. How do you just spill out the contents of a bottle that has been filling up for the past few years? The nightmare I’ve been so afraid of, is finally here.
It won’t be easy to pour out everything. I’ve gotten so used to storing this within me, it’s part of my life already. Oh how I wish I could tell you. But I don’t know how to. I suck. I really do. I am sorry.
It never fails to get me. The feeling of guilt. I run, leaving those lonely ones behind. I just don’t wanna be a witness to seeing them so miserable. I know they need me, but I don’t know what I can do. So I run, hoping for a temporary cure to these feelings. But then guilt comes up, and stabs you through your heart, “Why did you run? Why did you leave them alone? How could you!? You’re so selfish.”
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