thesilencedscreams

I am starting to get really paranoid. About everything. I ALWAYS feel like I am being lied to. All the freaking time.

I am also starting to hate everything that has to do with me. I mean, I never really liked myself but…
See that right there? I trail off way too much.
I can’t even finish a sentence.
Kill me, please. I really don’t want to be here.

Right now, I would probably be crying myself to sleep. If I had it in me. I just feel like nothing right now. I don’t really have anything else to say, yet I have so much to say. Ugh.

Yesterday, and for about forever before that, I actually felt something. Sure, it WAS sadness, but it was something. And, I really appreciated that something. Now, I feel nothing. At all, for any one or any thing. I really just don’t know what to do now.

Hi. I really don’t know who to word this (yeah, I am pretty socially awkward). Well, basically here is my story:
I lived a pretty normal childhood. I had nice parents and friends and stuff. My mom and dad WERE separated, but it didn’t really effect me (or is it affect? Sorry, I am bad at grammar. Well, either ‘effect’ or ‘affect’, you know what I mean). Again, pretty normal childhood, but somewhere around when I was five or six years old I started to feel weird. Worthless. Just like, no one cared. I had a little moment were I really just felt like giving […]