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The Grey Sheep

by TheStranger17 8/14/2014

written by TheStranger17

I am neither a black or white sheep, in terms of how extreme a person I am.

White sheep are the normal people, who have their daily struggles but usually they come out on top. Some of them have a good life, some of them bad – but most have a life that they feel is fulfilling and meaningful – spouse, house, career, car, kids – it’s all been done before but doing it yourself feels so different. You make your own life and you are relatively content, maybe even happy. Maybe a few bad thoughts now and then, when it gets to the lowest point […]

8/14/2014 3 comments

I Am This Way

by TheStranger17 8/6/2014

written by TheStranger17

I’ve decided that night time often is the worst time of day for me. How cliché – the worst comes with the darkness. I don’t like the dark. I’m sat in it now, with the dim light of my laptop illuminating my typing fingers and not much else. I try to familiarise myself with it, to know that I’m safe in my room when it’s dark just as much as when there is light.

I don’t know why this fear came back. Honestly, I do not understand, I got over my fear of the dark when I was a kid… but this past year or so, […]

8/6/2014 2 comments

The Solution to Self Harm

by TheStranger17 8/5/2014

written by TheStranger17

You know, I am trying to limit myself to one post per day on here, but something is bothering me. Well… not bothering. But I have something to share.
I never used to get self harm – even when I was doing it myself, but I didn’t think it was self harm until about a year ago. I never… understood why people did it. To get away? Because they hate themselves? Boredom? Distractions? I don’t know…I still cannot comprehend why I and others do it, because hurting yourself when you are already hurting is… nonsensical. But we do it anyway. We do it for the […]

8/5/2014 2 comments

The Red Flag Question

by TheStranger17 8/5/2014

written by TheStranger17

Alright, I know this isn’t strictly a post about suicide but would someone please enlighten me – why do some people have red flags next to their names on here? Sorry for my ignorance.
Thank you!
TheStranger17

8/5/2014 2 comments

When I’m Alone

by TheStranger17 8/5/2014

written by TheStranger17

Being alone for me, can be good or bad. It’s never really either, there is peace in being alone sometimes, but other times… I’d do anything for someone to be near me.

It’s weird, craving company, for me anyway. I never really was a social kid – I’ve said before I found it difficult to fit in and I was never really bothered about going out too much. But I don’t know, something changed in secondary school; I found myself wanting to be… accepted? Wanted? Included?

I changed my habits I guess – I stopped reading and writing so much fanfiction, stopped holing myself in my room […]

8/5/2014 2 comments

Just a story that doesn’t matter

by TheStranger17 8/4/2014

written by TheStranger17

You know, I haven’t had a bad life. Really, in perspective, retrospect, looking back… other people have worse problems than me. What I’m going through.. It’s bearable. You know, you bear it because you have to? But at the same time, it feels like you are going down an endless road of shite and it just keeps going and going like a frikken Duracell battery.

I have a pretty decent set of parents, I love them and I wouldn’t change them for the world – well, besides the fact that they are overweight and I don’t want to lose them before I have children, or even […]

8/4/2014 3 comments