My mental health has gone to shit and it’s been shit for so long now and I always wonder why I never just end everything for good. Am I some sort of masochist or something? I keep on jumping between being majorly depressed to having just minor depression and nothing is fixing the mess of my mind so I don’t know why I’m staying here when I’m just in constant pain. I feel like I’m not going anywhere and I’m just watching everyone around me grow and excel in life. I feel like my life no longer has any meaning or purpose since […]
I’m finally letting go. Life just keeps on getting worse. Nothing good ever happens anymore. I always have to put up a façade that I’m happy and hope that people don’t see what is really going on. I know if I act unhappy, people will ask and I know I will never be able to give a good enough answer without everyone being suspicious. I know I have to ‘catch the bus’ soon. I always wonder if there is an afterlife or if we just turn into ghosts and just lurk around, basically stalking people just we aren’t really there. I know I’m going to […]
I have always dreamed of myself dying at a young age and I hope it happens. If someone asked me if I could reverse my birth, I know I would. There is no other possible answer for me. My family always says I’m useless, so why should I be here? I don’t ever get why some people say that life is a gift. Whenever I’m in the car, I always imagine some car or truck crashing into me, killing me. Instantly or not, I just want to die. But the one thing that is holding me back are my friends. My closest friend, we have […]