trappedinthought

As the world sees me flying, I’m falling, and breaking down into dust.
As the world sees me laughing, I cry, while living, I die.
I am a man, I stand proud and tall, but the world fails to see the scared child hiding inside.
Broken in a million pieces, struggling to keep it all together, the lightest breeze will blow it all away.

Sorry if it sucks.

One of my best friends was talking to me and she started to ask some stuff that would have required me to tell her that I’m suicidal, depressed, and masochistic and I was kind of a jerk because I didn’t want her to find out. I’m not sure what exactly I’m supposed to say without telling her about those things.

I’ve been reading some of these posts for a few months now, and I finally made a profile tonight. I’m 17 and I’ve been super deppressed my whole life, and suicidal since I was five. I was beat really bad everyday when I was little and devoloped masochism. I finally managed to start convincing myself that everything would get better when the preacher at my church asked me to fill in for him Sunday night, I broke down and started crying while I was up there, and since then can barely gather the strength to get out of bed in the morning and all of […]