I want to die. Â I use to be suicidal, I’ve never quite stopped being suicidal but I haven’t had quite so many attempts in the past 10 years.
I think about it routinely.  If I had a better way of doing it I may already be gone by now.  I have someone who watches me closely.  I don’t have the opportunity to do a lot if I wanted to.  Fuck these safety nets. Someone cut them.
By this time I have done my research.  I have had my share of failed attempts.  Next time, what doesn’t kill me is going to leave me maimed for the rest of my life.
I feel […]