I lie awake at night and i think back when i saw razor blades and i was tempted to buy one. But i decided not too. I look back and think to myself “Why did not I buy it? Why did i stop myself” And i thought to myself there are no heroes, no one will save you from your depressing life. You have to be your own hero and save yourself. Because no one else will, and no one else will try, and as i lay here in bed i think to myself ” I am my own hero and I will save myself”
I moved to a new city this month. New place, New school. New people… New Me…
I was pretty much forced to change my appearance and i was forced to hide my sexuality. I feel like a little doll made to please everyone, but i don`t. That school is a living hell for me. So many people that i don`t like so many people that ignore me… i try talking and try to make friendships, but everyone ignores me. It`s a huge school and i get very nervous around crowds and it terrifies me, the only thing that keeps me from having a breakdown is my […]