unwantedburden

i would have never thought that my own father would put his soon to be wife and soon to be step kids before his own daughter.

i also would have never thought that my own father would tell me to drop dead.

im pretty sure tonight is the night where i end it all. im not loved, im not cared for and i honestly think im a waste of a person. im done with everything and everyone. i really cant deal with the hurting anymore.  ive been hurting for way to long.

please dont tell me that it will get better, because it hasnt and it wont.

im gone.

i dont think about the people that i love or the people that love me.

i dont think about the things i did today or that i will do tomorrow.

i dont think about the homework that i forgot to do.

i dont think about what i will dream tonight..

i only think about if tonight is the night i want to end it all…

i guess that makes me kind of messed up.

Im pretty sure i like the idea of dying more then i like the idea of living.

For me, i dont see the point in living to be honest. We all die one day.

Im not the same person i was 3 years ago. Everything has changed for me.

3 years ago, my mother died. i was only 14.

i guess id rather be with her then with the people im with now.

im never happy anymore… like at all.

i fake it all the time. i guess everyone does at some point.

i can never be open with anyone because im scared they are just going to judge me.

id rather torture […]