Life is like a bad idle / incremental game. It gets progressively tougher and more frustrating until you decide to close the window.
I have been feeling down lately. Probably because I have been feeling like I’ve lived a meaningless life. I feel that I am not doing enough to help my fellow human being. I have chosen my work in order to help people but I feel that I am not doing enough to help my fellow human being. I would like to go on the frontline, in the trenches. I feel like my work would be more meaningful there. Maybe I’m just ranting, and I’m sorry if this bothers anyone, but I feel that this is the only place where I can say it and be […]
This is my first real post on this site.
I am a 32 yo ortopaedic surgeon in an eastern european country. I have been contemplating suicide from the beginning of my residency.
Today something that I have been waiting for about twenty years to happen has indeed happened.
For about a year now I have been working in my hometown hospital. This afternoon my mother called to tell me that my former physics teacher from grades 6 to 8 has called my father to ask if I could see him (the teacher) for a bilateral knee fracture (patellae and tibial plateau fracture) sustained roughly 6 to 7 years […]