I want to kill myself. I think that if I was skinnier I wouldn’t wanna die anymore. I have always had the goal to make it to the size 0 jeans. I don’t see it ever happening. I am too fat. I don’t have enough willpower. I wish things were easier for me and I could just drop 2 sizes. I wanna be skinny. I wanna be Skinner more then I want anything in the world. I am not okay. I’m also not thin enough to have an eating disorder so I don’t know what I am doing. I have been like this since I […]
