For those of you who want to be in peace…… video I made… 🙂
Sit on the sand,
No other hand.
Sit there alone,
Heart cold as stone.
Sit there at night,
Have no more fight.
Sit there and think,
Sit on the brink.
Sit there and hear,
The ocean real clear.
Sit there under the moon,
Time to go soon.
Ocean is rough,
Life is too tough.
Sit there, ready to jump in.
Sit there now,
Death it will win.
Stars in the sky,
Don’t want to cry.
Just make it real fast,
So the suffering won’t last.
Watch the video and see how.
I can’t jump to conclusions without knowing for sure…. but I have a strong feeling my good friend on here has passed, or is in serious trouble. She rarely if ever commented on here, but she and I are close, so if you are reading this, you know who you are, and your last email was pretty distressing given I know your situation. If you have passed, I wish you peace in heaven.
its an option for me. i always have them around. something to knock me out, fall over the side, and the sharks do the rest.
Sunrise this morning as seen from offshore the east coast of Florida.
Enjoy.
Fish bit well too.
BIG stuff.
Enjoying my last days….
Look into my eyes,
What do you see?
Look into them hard,
Look at the real me.
Empty and dark,
Spirit is dead.
Feeling the numbness,
Inside my head.
Heart cold as steel,
Heart cold as ice,
Giving my love,
It paid the price.
The heart it beats on,
Keeps the body alive,
Demons inside me,
It’s where they thrive.
The struggle goes on,
Goes on each day.
The fight comes to an end.
In the coffin I lay.
Sunrise a new day,
Night came and left,
Today’s the same way.
Nothing new,
It’s just like before.
Still want to die,
Everyday feel it more.
As each day goes by,
It becomes clearer to see.
Few give a fuck,
Who’s there for me?
Many good words,
People they say.
You have reason to live,
You have reason to stay.
But what they don’t know,
Is what they can’t see.
Until the day comes,
Maybe then cry over me.
So Im going to enjoy my last days….. fishing, doing things I enjoy. Fuck all else….. it doesn’t matter. I’ll do things the fuckin way I want to.
suicide should be an option if you have absolutely no answers or other viable options for your situation. I don’t care about “justifying” it to people, that guilt trip only lasts so long. How do they justify trying to keep someone alive that doesn’t want to be nor feel they have a reason to be? they says the suicide people are selfish well I agree it is very selfish that they want someone to be miserable every freaking day just so they don’t have […]
I found this to be helpful…..
http://stayontop.org/suicide-preparation/
Crying each morning,
Crying all day.
Releasing the sorrow,
Releasing the pain.
Fight to wake up,
Fight to get out of bed.
Fighting the demons.
Inside my head.
Where do they come from,
Why are they there.
Maybe things would be different,
If someone would care.
Most look away.
It’s easier for them.
But I have a solution.
They will see then.
Maybe feel guilt,
Maybe feel shame.
Maybe feel something,
If they remember my name.
Preparing for suicide….. mentally and final arrangements.
Goodbye to all soon.
And I wish the best for all of you, even the haters.
Through the eyes of a child,
Everythings new.
The whole world around them,
All that they do.
All that they see,
All they can feel.
They learn it from us,
And they learn it is real.
They learn how to love,
They learn how to hate.
Growing each day,
They learn even more.
Some live in good homes,
Some get kicked on the floor.
Life teaches us well,
That we’re really alone.
Life teaches us hell.
To be as cold as a stone.
Do unto others,
As they would do unto you.
What a lie that is,
Coz they’ll still screw you.
In the end […]
I just wrote this for someone…….mainly how they see things looking out to the world…..
Storm in the sky,
Storm in my head.
Layin and cryin,
Tears soaking the bed.
Feelin the pressure,
Feelin the pain.
Heartache and suffering,
Call out my name.
I want to be loved,
Need someone to care.
Cant do this alone,
I need someone there.
Why so much rage,
Why so much hate.
Self destructing,
It seems it can’t wait.
Consumed by my feelings,
Consumed with the guilt.
The pain and the suffering,
Upon my life it was built.
But someone loves me,
I know that they do.
I know who […]
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Category:Suicides_by_carbon_monoxide_poisoning
And this will most likely be my chosen method…. as I have what I need to do it.
Scatter my ashes,
Out on the sea.
Scatter my ashes,
Do it for me.
Scatter my ashes,
Under moonlight.
Scatter my ashes,
Do it tonight.
Scatter my ashes,
Just say a quick prayer.
Scatter my ashes,
My soul won’t be there.
Scatter my ashes,
Out from the boat.
Scatter my ashes,
Watching them float.
Scatter my ashes,
While standing the bow,
Empty the urn,
Scatter them now.
Scatter my ashes,
Scatter them well.
Scatter my ashes,
As the boat rocks in the swell.
Scatter my ashes,
Now I am home.
Scatter my ashes,
No longer alone.
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