winterrain98

I hope that your head starts feeling beter that cant be good on top of not being able to sleep.  Insomnia is a *****

Why do some people have this need to make others feel wrong about anything they say?  And make them feel guilty a lot?  And I don’t mean as in give the opinion an tht is it, I mean u can say anything that is your own opinion and they want to find ways to prove you wrong everyday.  You can say ur opinion about something and they will come back amonth later an say well I think you were wrong because of this even if they have a ridiculous reason for it.  I mean you cant give your opinion about anything without them trying to […]

Once again I am realizing the way I feel guilty and crazy and I don’t trust my own opinions or actions anymore is because of the person around me.  So ALL the dogs ended up sick on an off for a while.  I try to tell this person it is probably because they wont stay out of the litter box and are eating cat crap al the time!  Well I fixed that so they cant get to the liter box anymore even though he constantly told me that wasn’t the cause.  Now for a week now the dogs havnt been sick at all anymore.  Today he […]

Well I have been writing exactly what I want to say to people irl that I cant and what is going on in my life and how I feel about it and just posting it here.  I turn off comments because mostly I feel no1 can help me out of the problems I get myself into.  And try to sort what is going on in my mind out on my own.  I think this works. First it helps to know at least someone has read what your feeling and secondly  when I reread how I am feeling I experience emotions reading it.  Rereading what I wrote […]

Mentally torturing myself for being so pathetic.  Even with my terror of complete darkness I have last couple nights took my little flash light with me and my little  dogs and went outside into pitch black darkness alone.  Its so hard to keep walking into the darkness outside alone when everything n you tells you to run. Each unexpected thing you see like a tree can can cause so much panic.  At times I feel so much panic I cant move I am frozen , when I get a grip I force myself to go farther by telling myself I am a pathetic exuse of […]

Feel like im finaly loosing my mind for good.  Idk if I am coming or going anymore.  Starting to feel so devastated an in so much mental anquish.  Everything that you have done to me is replaying over and over n my mind like a video on repeat.  That night I was drinking is weighing heavily on me lately  the night u smacked me in the face and I got angry and left with someone who had sex with me while I was passed out.  When you found out you wanted to beat the shit out of me and told me it was my fault […]

So you say you feel like the woman you loved and knew over 2 years is not the woman you brought home last night? The woman you loved is gone?   Well I think your right atm I am a person who feels anger and numbness now?

I am not that person anymore who had it in me to feel horrible an still try to make you feel beter anymore something in me is gone.died.    I don’t have it in me to sit an cuddle u constantly trying to make u feel beter when I feel this bad.

I just keep replaying over and over in my head all […]

I know what its like to feel biter.  After some of the worst emotional pain I have ever felt I know what it finally feels like to feel biter.  People are full of crap and if you put your faith and trust in them you asking to be hurt.  I trusted people and cared about them so it was my own dam fault I suffered so many years.  But this wont ever happen again because people are full of it an shouldn’t be trusted at all