I am 45 years old, I have been clinically depressed since I was 17. Â It has been a long and arduous path with several major setbacks including 2 long term hospitalization a as a ward of the state. Â The reason I bring this up is that after years of talking with many like minded people and reading dozens of posts on this site there is a common theme. Â Most of us seem to think that at least part of our problem is the fact we just don’t belong. Â Speaking for myself, the pressure to conform in today’s society has resulted in much of my anxiety […]
Over the years I have known several people that have successfully ended their lives.  None of them have been true friends but just people in my life that I have known.  The most recent is a man , for the most part well respected in the community, very generous with his time, great with kids, a professional and a very active member of the church.  I was one of the few that knew he was dealing with manic depression.  (Isn’t it odd that we can pick them out immediately, almost like they had  a scarlet letter around their neck but only visible to us, […]
Anyone else feel that in just 3:36 seconds he captured how so many of us feel?
My over zealous wife signed me up to do a relay marathon tomorrow evening at a zoo. Â She is hoping to break me out of my “funk”. Â Maybe I will jump into the gorilla pen and they can get the life insurance.
If the thought of our own mortality is so wrong in society, why are there so many of us registered on a site like this. Are we the blind ones or are the people outside of “our” secret world blind?
I, like most people here, am looking for answers that we all know don’t exist. Â Despite that we all continue, we push on with blind faith, hoping, wishing, praying that the answers will just suddenly appear before us. Â But I have lost my faith and hope and my wishes and prayers go without response.
I am now 45, and I have been struggling with depression ever since I was 17. Â It has been a long and exhausting trip. Â It has caused me to lose all of my friends, resulted in me being hospitalized for a total of 3 months between high school and college. Â Â And […]