I dont know what to do with myself. My mother told me i failed every class of my sophmore year, that im a failure, stupid, a waist of time, that im on the right way of being homeless. She tells me i cant go to summer school cause she doesnt want to waist her time and that i have to get a job to help myself from now on. I live right down from my school, about one hour walk. I can do it myself. I dont need her to help me. She said i dont get a second chance so i say”But thats the […]
It hurts so badly. Looking at the pictures of my friends and how happy they are. Ive realized that when i think of the people i care about and how precious they are to me, they probably dont think about me at all. I knew i would always fuck this up, i was just hoping i wouldnt be alone. SOooo, when i was looking at their pics from past them or posts they put on facebook or their happy inside jokes none have me in them. The old pictures have them so happy and smiling with people they still talk to and im all alone. […]
… every single day i think about him. His beautiful smile, the way he walks, his angelic voice, his laugh that sounds like bells the angels would be jealous of, the way his beautiful blue and green eyes capture all of the glorious moments the entire world holds while they seem so far away from reality that you could be captured in an instant and never leave if he would look at you long enough. And his soul, played around with so many times you can feel his depression, hurt, sorrow, anger, sadness, and need for love just seeping off of his aura its almost […]
I really have to STOP eating.
I have to stop, I must make myself perfect for Mike.
I can never make it anywhere if  I stay where I am now.
NO FOOD!!
I am done being an ugly, worthless, ***** that no one likes!
I will forcibly change,
I just wanna be important to you . . .
I think, and think, and think.
Am i really worth it?
The one I love will never love me back, he loves my best friend who I now uses me, she doesn’t love him back and teases him but he stays her friend and it hurts me to see him, I cry for him, They think its best to leave me alone,but i don’t wanna be alone.
Am I truly worth it?
Im going to starve myself. I’m tired of being fat and ugly, and worthless. I just want somebody, but they don’t want me.
Am I honestly […]