I can’t. I can’t do this anymore. I’m too weak. I don’t want to… I don’t want to… I don’t want to… help me.
Did I really think that he liked me? So naive, so naive, so naive…
Bye bye, my love, bye bye…
How do I help myself? How? I’m trying every thing I could think of but nothing seems to work anymore. I can’t take my pain anymore. It’s too much. I’m small. I’m weak. Are you going to leave me to die? Please, don’t…
I do not want to hurt people. But I do I do I do….
Great philosophers have told me that one isn’t good because of it’s words but one is good because it’s actions. (not a native English speaker, so do ou use it or what? Ignore this, just wanted to make sure I’m not wrong) Therefore I’m not good at all.
I’m a heatbreaker.
Because my heart belongs to some one else no one can have me now.
And You might say that this post is not supposed to be in suicidepoject but i honestly feel suicidal because I hurt people. I know how […]
I don’t want to be alone anymore. I need someone to need me. Is that too much to ask?
Why are You here? Not in this world, not in this situation, but this site. Why?
I’m here because I look for a little bit hope. I need someone to say it’s going to be alright. I know it will be. Maybe not today, but it will. I only post here when I’m suicidal, but look, I don’t post here often. You probably don’t go to this site everyday too. I’ve known this site for about a year and I haven’t posted much. I know suicidal days somehow find me but I’m not affraid anymore. I know it will pass. And when it does I start […]
Dear Sadness,
You win. He left me. He didn‘t even say goodbye. I can feel the winter inside me. I don‘t want to wake up in this nightmare anymore. He left me. He left me. He left me.
It‘s hard to believe, it‘s hard to see, it‘s hard.. But he did. Deep inside I know it but I can‘t force myself into believing it. I deny the true because it‘s too cold to carry it with me. I wish I could just close my eyes and disapear.
Oh, Sadness, I don’t mind You. My agony is bearable.  Don’t leave if You need to stay. I don‘t deserve to see […]
He is looking at me, I know, I can feel it. I’m too scared to look back, because if I will, I might fall in love with him agian. But I glance a bit and I prove myself that I was right, he is staring at me. I look away and say something to my friend. I laugh, but my heart is falling apart. I glance agian. He is not looking at me anymore.
Not long time ago I texted him. I said that I miss him and I asked him out on a date. No was the answer.
Bye bye, my dear.
But please, if You don’t like […]