I wonder what to do now seeing as how my mind isn’t clear there will always be that edge to want to hurt cut burn or die. No matter what I’ve been through this off and on uhm well something today caught in my mind I don’t know felt like sharing it, when I was little my mom left me only to be raised by my father I watched him suffer so he died when I was younger my dad was like my best friend so that loss killed me and started this horrible addiction of cutting than I had to leave everyone which […]
Ive been thinking alot about all sorts of things. Uhm I just don’t know what to do I honestly can say though taking my life doesn’t seem right at all someone made me relize that sure I’m still going to struggle through this and using these small things to numb the pain but one decision has been mad that I’m not going to take my own life if anything I’m just going to let what ever happens on it’s own and maybe I do need help but that will be decided at a different time I havnt even taken a hit of dope today even […]
I feel dizzy and cold I feel lifeless almost I’ll my skin feels like ice every sound sounds like it’s miles away..it’s starting to slowly kick in curled upbin a closet and hope not to lose my sanity that’s left…or is already all gone? But I’m so exhausted..just for now …I’m sleeping see how I feel in the morning…
So, this is odd I’ve never let out but now I don’t know I feel its necessary to put this out there I feel as if nothing truly matters anymore and I just don’t seem to care about anything including my own life by now..And also I’ve been so depressed and unhappy I know oh woe is me…I just feel the need to write this, I’ve never been truely happy it’s been so long I numb this pain that I occasionally get with pills alcohol and drugs and I feel great like nothigs wrong and lately I started to get the itch to do it […]