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Hey everyone,

I have been suicidal for a long time. Been hospitalized three times before. I’m just falling again and I don’t feel like I can make it anywhere. It’s too difficult for me to go on because my past haunts me constantly.

I’m planning on doing it during the summer and losing contact with classmates before hand so my death won’t effect them. Anyways, I’m just wondering what people think happens afterwards… I’m just wondering but I know no one can really know for sure until that time

coming across this website just a few hours ago i realized that theres people who suffer more or just as much as i do..different ages different sex it doesnt matter, they all have problems..some which are hard to face alone and sometimes seem impossible to overcome. pretty much all my life ive felt alone, thinking to myself “whats wrong with u? cant u just act normal for once??” but i guess i wasnt the only one all along…even tho i honestly would do anything possible to heal or help everyone in this site with their problems, i cant. but it helps me that i […]

I look up at the sky and I think, ‘I want to go home. Please, God, let me die today.’ I remember being about 8 years old and lying in bed at night and crying, pleading for the same thing.

I’ve never wanted to be here. I really want to go home now, more than ever.

The question remains: Can I?

when the girl you love loves someone else. and you wish for death to end your pain

Thnx to all the people who care.. it might be like 5 at the most but thnx you I am feeling a little better seeing and knowing people vcare. you r my savior..

I cant belive that people hate others so much they beat them up and at that bank them and the people feel so weak they want to die….. I have a feeling that well.. ill post the rest tomorrow..

I am so tired. It comes to the point where I need to go away forever just to be a peace.
I am young and have such an amazing future ahead of me and I would give anything to be strong enough to go after that. To achieve my potential and to be the best I can be. But I have no patience. I have everything that should make me happy. I have a boy who loves me, the best friends on the face of the earth and a well-off family… I have a relationship with God, no matter how pathetic it may be, I’m […]

i feel like shit

i feel like not living

i feel like all i do is hurt

all cause of me not thinking and deleting a stupid picture

all this hurt

pain

for me and you

ugh

i fucking hate myself

you need better than me

i probably wont last much longer

I feel extremely depressed and I feel so critical of myself that I can’t write properly without my inner critic telling me how stupid my problems are and that I need to let it go. I guess that’s why I don’t really trust anyone or don’t have friends I mean sure we all have friends people we hang out with from time to time but I don’t really have anyone I can trust(to the people on here that have helped me thank you) that I feel won’t judge me. I’m not very social most of the time I just go to school and don’t really […]

Man I started to talk to you and you were slipping the key to my heart out of my pocket. Then we knew each other like what we looked like and then you tell me… you already had a bf and you had broke the heart i didn’t have. thnx a lot if you read this, you know who im talking about certain person. i have been let down again plz someone help…. plz.

My life overall has just been sad. It isn’t sad all day every day, but there are always moments throughout my day when I become sad. I start thinking about how much my life has changed and how much it is going to change. I’m still fairly young and I’m actually graduating at the beginning of next month. I’ve been taking this month to say goodbye to the people that I probably won’t see again for a really long time, and I think it’s adding to the sadness. Since I’m new here I guess I’ll share part of my story; my parents are divorced, and […]

any news from catchthebus? stopped replying to my emails… just want closure please. thanks

get redey

go out

tiy the knot

don’t let them see

hang there 2 minits of pane and panic

then light and no pane

sownd so simpul

not for me and now I don’t were she is

what she thinks of me

if we can be like it was

im I dead to her

sister of understanding

younger than me but with more sens

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xGytDsqkQY8

I post here – talk, I guess you could say – about it because it’s not safe to say out loud. Not if you’re uncertain. Not if you don’t want to be stopped.

It’s worse now. And I love it – how people that you go to for help end up making it worse. How they realize that they’re in over their head and then – ha – they dump you. They can’t handle it and they give you three references – via email and on a Sunday - and tell you good luck.

No one knows. No one can. This is what suicide feels like. The before. […]

Time gets closer everyday to the point where I will be out of money.  Today was the last day to appeal my unemployment denial, which my boss refused stating I quit to go to school, which is a lie.  I didn’t appeal.  I cannot stand the idea of talking to her.  I keep having nightmares, I keep having trouble sleeping, then when I do, I just feel tired anyway.  I’ve lied on my resume, to get rid of the blackballing boss bully that has been telling lies about me, but at the same time, it gets rid of about five years of management experience that […]