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I strongly recommend anyone reading this to watch the documentary “The Suicide Tourist.” It is a special about an American man with Lou Gherig’s disease who traveled to Switzerland where the right to die for foreigners is legal, albeit controversial. This man chose to end his life due to the inevitability of his physical pain, suffering and death, but I have a feeling many on here may find parallels to their own lives and may find it beneficial. Seriously, Youtube, TV, wherever you can find it, if you can find it, watch it.

Ok, this is my first time writing on this so I’m sorry if it’s not right. I just don’t know how to make everything go away is the only title I could think of.
Alri I’m going to give you a little back story. I have always struggled with myself I have always hated my body,my face my personality my everything. I have a lovely family and have always been given everything I have asked for and still not being happy sends me into a deeper depression and state of hopelessness when I’m surrounded by lovely thing but I am still the problem. I have […]

Why can’t I open my mouth?  Why can’t I tell you?  I think it’s because you love me.  I think it’s because everyone who I should tell loves me.  And it’s so much better to hold it in—better for them.  They look so happy when they see me smile.  And sometimes it’s genuine, but I still want to die, the whole entire time…Why can’t I tell you?  Because you care enough to stop me.  Because I don’t want you to.  Because it’s over and you can’t see it in my eyes.  There are just too many lies.  I’m good at this now, and there’s no […]

I am at a motel. I looked into the mirror and I was horrified. I wish I was pretty….or even looked like a girl. There is no hope. I am trapped in this body. I feel sick and all I want to do is die. But I am afraid and I don’t know how to. I wait for things to get better…plan dream hope and write. But it is useless. I realize now my life is worthless for all my dreams of being beautiful or loved are gone. I do not complain to anyone as I am ashamed I feel this way. I wish there […]

I have been going over and over my life to this point. I have been given every opportunity as a child. I had been bullied by my peers till grade 10, then i was shipped off to military school to be bullied by my elders. I went off to college even though school was so hard for me i graduated by sheer luck or parents influence. Going to college with my peers i still didnt fit the mold. I was never the popular guy based on personality or how i treated others. I got friends through my jobs doing security. I began to work in […]

Do you guys plan on leaving a letter behind? I want to be able to apologize and let people know my reasoning behind my suicide but I have the feeling that my apology wouldn’t accepted and that nobody would understand.

Step 1) Put heart into wringing device.

Step 2) Twist and contort. Repeat until unrecognizable.

Step 3) Refer to user’s manual to put back into proper shape.

I know I put that user’s manual somewhere….

I would explain what this means, but I’m too exhausted to think about how to do it.

Alot of people upon getting to know me wonder why i want to be a writer, well thats a trick question really. yes the wealth and renown would be nice but that is not the main reason nor any reason at all.

i want to be remembered for what i do, not who i am. that is it really.

i mean just think, how many of your lives have been inspired by great literature?

peter pan,

alice in wonderland

the catcher in the rye

the great gatsby

where the wild things are

i mean that is just a few to mention.

dantes inferno

the never ending story

hell even if we go recent

harry potter

twilight

the infernal instruments […]

Thats the date..been planning for 6 months.. i dont have any unfinished business so im free to go.. but i plan to be buried in Florida but i need to move back there first.. i plan to move to miami next week from Atlanta ga… ima have a month full of Fun.. then do my suicide… and i have my Will prepared but i dont have a Plot for my body yet… now is it true that the state will bury me if i dont have 5000 for my funeral? I need advice on my plans for my funeral.. my suicide is already taking care […]

they said summer nights would last forever

take my hand this is our endeavor

running up the side walk in the pitch dark

hoping some where love had sparked

when you kissed me it was full of passion

but that was it nothing else happened

i couldn’t wait to get you undress

the audience can guess what happened next

it was fun just for a while

but it ran out after so many miles

i never knew it would affect you like this

i had no way of knowing what would happen next

they found you swinging from the closet beam

it was like a nightmare from a twisted dream

i never meant to play you that hard

i know […]

do you remember when we stole that car?

we took off fast and drove all night long

it was four AM when you freaked the fuck out

we drove all the way back and parked it outside the house.

do you remember all the long nights,

looking at the stars and talking about life,

we broke into the school and were sitting on the roof

when the cops rolled up and we all got spooked

we managed to run, and get away

but we went right back the very next day

do you remember the public pool

how we got so high and thought we were cool

running on the side and crashing in the deep end

i […]

Hey Everyone! It’s been a while since I last posted on here, so I thought that I would update you guys on how my love life is progressing. Those of you who know me, will remember that I recently met the love of my life on a dating site. We have seen each other a few times and we’ve even talked about marriage. We click perfectly and I really enjoy her company.

My only worry is that she has no interest in having sex or doing anything sexual, until we are married. This makes me wonder. What if she is asexual and still refuses to have […]

I hate being home, but i love it. When I am home alone, I am free to go throughout my house. i have no boundaries within the walls. But I am not allowed to leave. And this sheltering has made me become scared of the outside world. When my mothers boyfriend is home. i am in my room and do not come out. mainly because of him. He has full controle of the living room, kitchen, both bathrooms, and my mother. he does not clean he does not cook, he doesnt cut the grass or take the trash out. He doesnt walk to puppies he […]