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someone just kill me please.
life sucks. i hate being the one who’s always nice but then gets hatred in return. everyday of my life is just an other day of hell. i hate the life I’m living. i dont want to be here anymore. i just wanna die and disappear. but once im gone, everyone will now “love” me. truth is no one will miss me. no one would care. no one loves me. if they say they do it all turns out to be a lie.
cant squeeze a tear out..
cant even moan my cries..
there’s nothing to do but blame myself
and..there’s nothing really to say… but can I die?
I’m gonna probably do it again
ill maybe do it deep tonight..
its been what since February?
this isn’t really a poem but..
life is full of rejects who just whine and cry…
I guess I’m done with choosing sides
I just want to be loved by a lover
but instead of love, he shows pain instead..
and blames himself for this ruined relationship..
who’s to blame? obviously we blame ourselves…
falling and falling…
wanting comfort..
but cant seek it in each other…
I find the ending of my pain in pleasure
and I just want to rush […]
I know we’ll never understand each other but just try to make an effort.
You don’t imagine how frustrating is have a “depressive” side that no one in your family knows or even imagine. I hide my tears. I hide my sadness. I hide my fooling (?) I hide just that side.
I wish I can make you proud but even if I try and try I can’t is something inside me who need to disappear before I could.
I love you even if sometimes I want you to disappear
Please forgive me
Anyone who need someone to talk …..trust me i have no life im right here if you need me
“To die would be an awfully big adventure.”
-Peter Pan (J. M. Barrie)
“After all, to the well-organized mind, death is but the next great adventure.”
-Albus Dumbledore (J. K. Rowling)
(Sorry if you don’t understand I’m from chile)Yesterday a close friend of mine told that she cuts only once because she want to know how it feels… She said to me that she was frustrated because she knew about my cuttings etc…
First I felt her as a sister she didn’t judge me she try to understand me but then I felt guilty because she is self harming her by nothing… By my fault
I told her to stop and she said that she will never do it again but I steel feeling bad :'(
IT’S MY FAULT
I CAN’T DO SOMETHING WITHOUT […]
I am new here, but hopefully someone can give me their opinion, idea, advice…whatever. Â I am in remission from cancer, but who knows for how long. Â I have had so many surgeries and chemo that I just do not want to try and keep fighting again. Â I am all right now, but will want to have a suicide plan in place if it returns. Â I am over 50, but do not know how to do this. Â I wish Kovorkian was alive and it was legal for assisted suicide. Â Anything you can tell me about would be appreciated.
I was 16 when I first attempted suicide. It was getting late, around 5pm on a school day. I didn’t go to school that day either, I skipped school to hang out near a lake by myself. Yeah… “super fun”. “I hated school, I hated friends, I hated family, I hated myself, I hated life, and I wanted to die” was what I spent the entire morning and afternoon contemplating about. Life. Death. Would anybody really care if I was to “disappear” the next day? I lay there, near the lake’s edge and on some clean grass. I was staring at this tree’s colorful leafs […]
i really want to die. I can’t live like this anymore.
All my life I was bullied. I was called names, threatened, beat up, and almost molested. For once I just wanted to be happy again but I couldn’t be happy anymore because my past life has been haunting me. I scare myself with my own thoughts. I self-harm. I have a depressive disorder. My insecurities and thoughts are killing me. all I do is throw a fake smile and pretend nothing happened. I cry myself to sleep every night. I suffer everywhere. I never get to smile and mean it for the whole day. I tell people to stop cutting but yet I can never stop myself. I’m never good enough, […]
warning: contains mild cursing
social anxiety disorder really sucks. most of my symptoms have gone away over the past couple of years and i’m really grateful for that, but i still cannot live a normal life like seemingly almost all the people i know do. i’m also depressed, sort of. i know that if i didn’t have SAD at all that i wouldn’t let depression get to me. don’t get me wrong, i have friends and people i can talk to about things, but only serious things. unless i have something funny to say or i need to talk about something serious, i don’t really talk […]
I tend to feel dumb after seeing the psychiatrist.
“Recognize the areas in your life that are making you unhappy and CHANGE them.”
Sounds so simple. She has hope for me that comes from I don’t know where. (is it generic I-believe-in-everyone-who-pays-me hope?) I actually leave her office thinking maybe I CAN do something to get myself unstuck from this limbo.
Then I think about it. Can I sprinkle a little fairy dust on my insides and grow some self esteem? Can I make my ex wake up and decide he suddenly can’t live without me? No? Well then. […]
Well, my big date is tomorrow. I’ve been texting her all week after meeting on an online dating website and we’re finally going to meet in person. I’m driving down to her city tomorrow morning and we’ll be spending the day together doing various activities… (not what you’re thinking though). Hopefully things will work out this time and I won’t end up being the 40 year old virgin. 🙂
All my life, I’ve been utter crap.
I’ve been treated like crap in grade school for reasons I don’t even know. Then in middle school. About high school time, I started to think bad thoughts. I had held on for so long, kept myself strong for as long as I could, but I couldn’t fucking do it. My mom was killing herself by working to feed my brother, my sisters, and me. I got a job and worked most of the day after school to help, along with studying half the night. That resulted in me getting insomnia and sleeping problems, which led to anxiety and […]
Hey there… I am a 19 year-old female, these are my thoughts… need to get them out…
I want to talk or scream , but my vocal cords refuse.
I want to cry, but my eyes stay dry.
I want to run, but my legs won’t move.
It’s so frustrating. I want to be heard, but I am afraid of talking. Afraid of opening my mouth.
Afraid of rejection, Afraid of people.
I suck at being alone. But I suck at being with people.
I need them. I push them away.
I need to be heard
to be held
to be loved
maybe people love me, but this box I made… these walls… they are too […]
“But though you’re still with me, I’ve been alone all along.”
I’m a TI. That means I was chosen for torture by telepathic militant congress for experimentation and torture. There was gang stalking long ago, as well. I made some posts in another forum, and I thought I might copy and paste them over to this site.
February 2013
So it’s been 7 long years of EHOS for this target, and the only thing left within my capacity to do is end my life along with the perps’ fixation on me. Â There is nothing I can achieve that myself before EH manipulations would want. Â Not even slightly.
I walked with a duffel bag back and forth over a few […]
So I am weak
so I’m not strong!
so I can’t find,
a way to get along.
So I’m not fine
So I fake my smile!
So I’m not alright.
haven’t been for a while.
So i’m not the best.
So i’m not that good.
So i’m depressed.
So I’ll die like I should.
So I cut and bleed
So I don’t wanna breathe
So, I’m just me…
So…So what…
You tied my noose
and you loaded my gun
you bought me pills
and you pushed me off.
you lit the flame.
re-routed the train
pushed me off the bridge
you did all you did.
You […]