I’ve been trying to write a break-up letter to my mother for at least a week now. The week before, I waited to make sure I was making the right choice and was not acting uncharacteristically emotional.

I want to write this letter, but I just can’t be bothered. It seems like too much effort. Maybe I need to write down the main points and then flesh it out. Don’t really know why I’m doing it though. I mean, if I’m never going to speak to her or any of her siblings again, do I really care what she thinks? Maybe I’m doing it so she […]

My destiny is suicide.

Rereading the title of this post almost makes me chuckle. The passivity inherent in it, that eventually I will do something, is the way i’ve been living my life up until this point. It’s part of the reason I want to end my life. But not the only reason.

The reason is, I have always felt outside of the norm. I’ve always felt rejected and set aside, despite being told I was loved, I felt somehow dismissed. I know that in school I was indeed rejected and set aside. I was a wierd kid. I can’t let go of the idea of what I used to be, […]

I am too fucking old to go through losing my home and going down the ghetto life’s road with welfare, being homeless and all that shit. I’ve done this too many times. In the last week I’ve lost my job of over ten years, crashed my car and lost my medical insurance. Believe it or not the loss of medical coverage is the most devastating. COBRA costs almost $1000 a month to continue my coverage – not a viable option without a job. So now I sit, waiting for my medications to run out and decisions on unemployment insurance, O’ Blotto Care and the like. […]

Ready to go die if you are.

I just don’t know anymore I’m lost and beaten down I’m tired off fighting this it never gets better and if it doses it’s sort lived. I want to live in my dreams I don’t want to wake-up and face another day.

There is this belief that when you attempt or successfully exit, you leave behind a league of people sad, distraught, angry, hurt and so on.

I think that’s a load of horse-shit.

First, let’s examine the facts: tomorrow will arrive, so will the day after, and the day after that. Whether I’m here or not, this planet – and all it’s faults – will keep turning.

It means that ordinary, happy and successful life for everyone else will continue. Sure, there may be a few tears shed for a day or two. But everyone – everyone – will move on, as they do. I know I personally will not be missed […]

Many of you know the basics of my story. This is the whole story, from when I met my soulmate, to when I lost him. I figured it was time to share the details. I apologize for the length of this post, but appreciate those who take the time to read all the way through to the end. If you make it all the way to the end, there’s a special treat.

We weren’t supposed to be separated. We were meant to find each other. We lived on opposite sides of the country, and through unlikely circumstances, we met when I went to Ohio for school. […]

I would like to make some friends on this site seeing as we all tend to lean towards the same mentalities. Maybe I’m misunderstanding what this site is about but I would very much enjoy some companionship. For the record I am not a serial killer, pedophile, or 50 year old man living in my mothers basement. I hope that helps 🙂

I suffer from severe anxiety among other things. If xanax didnt exist I probably would’ve gone insane and peeled my own skin off by now. Lately, I can’t sleep. Let me correct that, It won’t let me sleep. Every time I start to relax my heart rate increases and I feel like I’m going to vomit. This anxious demon inside me is getting angrier. I can’t think of my future without almost having a panic attack. My death seems to cause me less concern than my prolonged life.

How do you quell a monster that you can’t control? I’m tired of the anxiety and the […]

Will you use your final act to help others in suffering? I am thinking of writing a concise message for the news to pick up on if they cover my death.

Depression and anxiety are real. Hug your friends. Learn to notice signs of depression (they can be hard to detect). Offer your own experiences with pain, and don’t give up on friends going through a rough time. You are likely much more important to them than you think you are.

Am I rambling?

The method must be drastic. I don’t know how specific I am allowed to be here, but I am inspired by the monks in […]

i just dont know how to go by doing it. i tryed to explain in my previous post but theres no much more to the reason why. i have tried overdosing many times before it never seems to work. i want something thats not too painfull as iam already in enough pain and just want to get out of it.

Star to star in America

Where do I get across

To the gate, the bridge

The light, a far side

I want to catch, are you Psyduck

Such powers, Golduck

The toxin, evolution Weezing

I am vowed celibate, want to find Arbok

I am, the Morlock

Seven years of rotting

Where do I go, in my binary

I seek, only praise for goddess

man…

I’ve never been on this site before, but I don’t have anyone to talk to.

Currently I’m 34 weeks pregnant and I have a 5 year old and a 2 year old. My husband and I are having issues, He’s become harsh and uncaring about issues I’ve been having during this pregnancy. Due to this I feel as though I’m being pushed to break a promise I made 5 years ago. The day I found out I was pregnant with my first I promised I would never cut again.

Lately that’s all I can think about. I fantasize of the feel of a blade against my […]

i dont knkw what it is, from the age of 12 my whole life changed ive never liked myself. i have just split up with my boyfriend today. we was together for 2 years, wenr through alot together he made me feel wanted and loved, made me feel like there was actually good things to me. i thought everything was fine, we talked about having a baby, getting married how much we loved each other. we went on a mini break to devon to just be together without any one else, without work just to spend time together. i was happy.. he told me today […]

living alone… not knowing if my love will ever be back… I just wanna die.

Hello all,

This is not a suicide note. Nor is it a plea for help, understanding, and it’s definitely not intended to try and scour out techniques and methods for end of life. I know what I’m prepared to do (helium exit bag seems to be the winning candidate so far) and I’ve set a date for December 1st. I did this because what little hope I have left (eroding by the minute – literally), things might (but probably wont – story of my life) turn around.

I joined this board because for years I’ve been thinking of ending my life. I’m a complete and total failure and […]

I need a chick . jk, kinda

I’ve always been told that I’m living wrong, I’m doing things wrong, I have the wrong hobbies and interests, hanging out with the wrong friends, being either to shy or to loud, spending my time wrong, treating people wrong. And I have always believed them, my family, my friends, my teachers or whoever I was in contact with. I tried to be like them, like the “cool guys at school” even though it was exactly them who bullied me for years; I tried to befriend them and act like them, because every input I got from anyone was about me being wrong and them being […]

i have been an unwanted child of my parents since my birth. My old fukking asshole of a father didn’t realize the mistake that he was going to commit on that unfortunate fukking day. it kind of just happenned and I got fukking born.

Now this is only the start of my fukking life and I have been wanting to kill myself for over a fukking 15 years, but somehow have still not been able to do and am fukking living on.

Have read the peaceful pill over a dozen times, but can’t find the fukking ******** or the fukking exit bag.  Have decided on CO death,  and […]