deppresion isnt crying all the time it isnt the constant reminder that you want to die, its the feeling of being numb… its not something you want to have bt you just do. its not like i asked for this life. I would never want someone to feel the pain i feel…

My name is Anonymous
I’m 15 years old
I want to be free
From a world that is cold
I’m just an Angel
I want to go home
I’m not a stranger
In heaven’s dome
The Lord watches over me
I know he hears my prayers
He that I cannot see
I still know he’s there
I’m unhappy with life itself
No one really understands
I don’t want fame, cars or wealth
I just need a helping hand
To guide me along a path
That is far away from life
I need a friendly hand to grasp
As I reach for a knife
Do not […]

I’m new to this so don’t even know if the box I’m typing in is the box I’m supposed to be typing in and I realize that nobody probably cares/will read this but It feels great to get it out so here goes.
I’m Jess, I am 17 years old and I am on my summer holidays from school now. Over the past year I have just grown to be so disapointed in myself and I jst feel worthless. I self-harm and I’ve told nobody about it. I understand that it is necessary to tell people about it and to find help but although my […]

I don’t want to die. I really don’t. Except everyday I go to sleep I wish this is the end. I wish I wouldn’t wake up. And every time I wake up I’m disappointed I did. And then I feel horrible about wanting to die when there are so many people who would give anything to live. So maybe I do want to die, but I just don’t want to kill myself. It’s why I had to stop the cutting, if I kept at it I would have killed myself.

There is a pit in my stomach and I don’t know why. Maybe it’s because I […]

Hello All,

I m new to this site

Why cant please my GOD i do the things i dnt want to do as apostle paul said, But I love GOD but not able to please him , i feel loneliness in the world fear to speak with people evryone in the world are cruel no humans exists , sometimes i feel myself lost many tyms felt ending up my life, I lov BIBLE, JESUS , My god father but i m sinner i m lost , y cant god help me and stop me from sining , He left me alone in this cruel selfish world, I […]

I’ve raided my pill box. I want to be thorough. Not looking for a high or some crazy trip. Don’t want to wake up in the hospital. Looking for the eternal rest.

Fluoxetine 400 mg, Citalopram 360mg, Oxycodone 270 mg, Hydrocodone 305mg, Metoprolol 200mg, Tramadol 8500mg, Topiramate 3000mg, and Naproxen 9000mg.

I have more drugs I can add but a search on WebMD shows serious interactions between this list so I figured combine them all.

But I still wonder will this be enough? I think combining it with the isopropyl alcohol should do the trick…I hope.

The title describes me completely…I’m a worthless idiot,a pathetic piece of shit…

I fail at everything I do.I do nothing right.Everyone who trusted in me ended up being disappointed by my worthlessness.My parents,my relatives,my friends,my ex girlfriend…And the list of people who I’ve disappointed continues…

Just to show you how much more I can fail,I’ve even failed at dying.Yes,I failed at dying.Two weeks ago I have slit my wrists,but I,being the pathetic idiot I am,was afraid that cutting ”too deep” will give me too much pain…See?I can’t even kill myself right.I had to go to the E.R. and I looked like the complete idiot I am when […]

is built in way that if you undergoing lot of pain in life it automatically triggers suicidal thoughts

Hey i just checked out this site.. bc i been looking for ways to kill myself and.get over the fear of pain. I have accomplished. that and bc the girl im in love with chooses to ignore me she will see ill be dead within 2 weeks. Why wait you guys say. Well i did actually attemp to od and ju,p off a bridge into traffic but i puked before i took the pills and got scared. But i ha e done my research. I will die by a mix of pills and alcohol. I will drink till my bac is so high and take […]

He left with her; ten years younger than I. How the hell can I compete? He is so beautiful to look at I want to stab a knife in my stomach and rip all the guts out by turning. I can’t have what I want. I want him. He wants her: story of my life. I saw them leave together. So I ended up drunk at some house party where I made a fool of myself and let some dumb dog chew my hands and arms to bits. I feel nothing. It felt so good at the time to let the dog chew and chew […]

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Hi guys, I’m Declan and obviously I’m new here and I thought I’d introduce myself:

I was born into a stable family. I have loving parents that care for me. Wanna know the weird thing? I’m unhappy. Mhmm, unhappy with life but I have parents who love me. That’s because I haven’t talked about my school life:

So skipping the cringeworthy moments I had in prep to grade 6. Grade 7 was when I began experiencing bullying. It was nothing physical, I used to get teased a lot because of my name. Now, one of my flaws as a human being is that  I won’t tell anyone […]

So Shakinbakin and I have decided to work on an EP together – we have a couple of pieces being produced at the moment – this is one of them. Obviously this is before the music magic happens, but thought that there might be some poetry fans that could appreciate it raw.

As always, for the benefit of those that have troubles with an Australian accent, the poem is below.

The Point

I’ve developed an overwhelming hatred of sobriety
When I’m fucked up is the only time I don’t hate myself entirely
Isaac Newton said that what goes up, must come down
So the higher you get, the […]

my parents have done so much for me
yet im failing all my subjects and im fat and i just feel so much burden. Everytime i think about one bad result, everything come crashing down and i think about my future and then dying and then i just wish somebody would kill me.
someone please kill me, ill pay you.

Finally I can have this back. Finally got *him* to leave this alone. God where the hell do I start? I was in the bathroom one day and I just filled up the tub. No bubbles. No nothing. It’s not like I was trying to have a bubble bath. And I got in and went underwater. As long as I could. Knowing that I’ll struggle and finally come up for air once I can’t take anymore. But I wanted to suffer. Feel me black out. I sat there for 2 hours of just complete silence. I’ve had a relapse and it’s horrible.

Just want to first say this:

IF YOU ARE ON HERE READING THIS PLEASE FORCE YOURSELF TO FIND REASONS NOT TO AND THEN COME UP WITH A RADICAL BUT ACHIEVABLE PLAN FOR BEGINNING TO LIVE AND EMBRACE LIFE AGAIN.

YOU ARE WORTH IT.  YOU ARE, EVEN IF YOU CAN’T RECOGNIZE IT RIGHT NOW.

PAIN, DARKNESS CAN BE OVERCOME.

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Have attempted suicide a few times, most recently 2007 (carbon monoxide, more impulsive and less deliberate) and 2012 (overdose, deliberate and methodical).

2012 was closest to date; received dialysis twice and woke up convinced I had irreversible brain damage.  Realize that my resolve to succeed each time is growing and […]

If I could do it and not hurt her, I think I would be gone. I wish I could do it and her not think it’s her fault. I wish she knew that I did it because I am the worthless one who is trying to save her from anymore pain. She is my sunshine. With out her my world is very dark.

For starters, I’m amber. Despite what it was like growing up, I was generally a happy kid. I had my grandpa to thank for that. My family and I lived with him until I was about 10. I was very close to him. My parents didn’t pay much attention to me because of my older sister and twin younger brother and sister they had to worry about. My grandpa was always there for me, he defended me and stopped my dad from beating me. Three years ago he passed away and for three years, I haven’t been the same.
All I want is to be […]

I just want to sleep, dreamless, for eternity.

My life is destroyed beyond repair due to actions and decisions I made while having bipolar episodes. My financial state is ruined because of mania and my academic/professional state is in tatters because of depression.  I have wasted time, ignored my talents, and destroyed my opportunities.

I have been on countless medications, slogged through endless CBT appointments. Nothing is working. I have no hope left. I am a ruined, broken creature. I do not have it in myself to continue any longer.

I regret leaving behind those that care for me – especially my boyfriend and father. However, I cannot […]

I am so tired. I feel like I haven’t slept in days. I haven’t slept in days I keep having bad dreams. My friend died a month ago, it and I keep dreaming that she died again, and wake up crying. I can’t talk to anybody. I told my sister that I had lost 10 pounds in two weeks, and she said congratulations. 🙂 But, it’s not just my friend dying. It started before that. I keep crying throughout the day. I’m supposed to be happy and friendly and helpful, but I keep having meltdowns at work. I feel ridiculous, I feel like a failure. […]

I know this sounds silly but, would it be ideal to wear a diaper underneath a person’s clothes when it’s time to leave?  I keep hearing different things about how people lose control of their bladder when the die.