I really should get out.  It’s such a nice day- no not sunny how most people like it, but a bit cloudy and breezy, right after a rain, which is my favorite kind of weather.  I have been isolating myself for the past few months, going outside once every few days only for necessities like food & toilet paper and such.

I think about going out, but then I say to myself, “where do I go?” and “what will I do?”  I can’t think of an answer so I stay inside…

Lame, yes.  Lack a life, yes.  Depressed, yes.  And have no friends so nobody to do […]

OK, before I start I want to say that this IS the absolute truth, none of this is in my head!

I have been having suicidal thoughts for a while now.The only person I have ever told is my big sis.She just says that I should stop acting stupid.She just doesn’t get how I feel.I’m living my life half-asleep. I’m in high school (my sis goes to uni). I just sit through classes, I try to concentrate yet I always end up just staring at my teacher with a blanc mind.I write lyrings on my hands to cheer myself up. I have thought of suicide many […]

I’ve been waiting to buy my own bottle to end my life with and im terrified. As though I can’t possibly do it, but im going to make myself. I like life, I cant stand myself and all the things I don’t know.. Im not very excited, just sad. am I crazy to feel I dont want to do this but its for the best? fuck, whats crazy anyway, I know this is for the best. why am I so afraid.. I dont want to do it myself.. it astounds me everyday that I live alongside humans that can build skyscrapers, entertain millions with their […]

Why is such a site appealing?

Don’t know, but it is.

Thanks for having it.

I have not been thinking of suicide for the past couple of years, but in the last couple of months yes.

The same old thing–how do I make it look like an accident (insurance money) and yet guarantee that it’s successful and not too painful?

In Switzerland, you hear about the occassional bicycle rider who gets hit by a car.

But you know at 48, I have managed to live with depressed thoughts for a long time.

I see all these young people on this site and I cannot imagine how they can feel so down.

In my […]

im so very afraid, hurt, and sad. 🙁

its late. i may post later.

I have always been alone, lack of social life, have only 3 actual friends that I don’t want them to worry too much. My family would mock me for my thoughts and caused me to regret many choices. I have always been questioning what I actually wanted to do, but I don’t know. I suffer from fear, day to day endlessly. I fear about my future, what’s my point in living? I lack confidence indeed, but I truly don’t have any special skills. It was all fine to me, I can shed a few tears at night and get over all of my sadness and […]

Hey sorry your all here but im suicidal and kinda want someone to talk to who gets it so if you dont mind could you maybe email me kylewebe66@yahoo.com

my problem is not that I wanna kill myself

it’s not that

it’s not that I get pleasure out of feeling my blood trickle out

it’s not that I love the pain rushing through my limbs

it’s not

that.

last thing I want to do is kill myself

what I want is to die.

I don’t want the meds.

not a drink of poison.

I dont wanna go out and

get raped and killed

after being held at gunpoint

what I want is to die, peacefully, in my sleep, away

I wanna die dreaming about you

cause any other way, I can’t

Reaching out but never caught.
In plain sight but never seen.
Screaming for the attention,
the one that will never come.
But if it ever does,
it’s too late;
For I am gone.

Shouting for freedom,
hoping for a savior.
The wind whispers,
of Love…of Acceptance.
Blank faces stare back,
forever judging,
forever laughing.
For I am gone.

No more crying,
please; For me.
No more loneliness,
no more regret.
Darkness…Light,
they both look the same.
For I am gone,
For I am alone.

If only they knew…
If only you knew…
If only they didn’t judge…
If only you didn’t break…
If only they understood…
If only you were here…
If only…

That’s pretty much the story of my  life.

i always wonder, why am i so sad?… everything is (or at least seems) fine.

my body works how it’s supposed to, i’ve got a decent house, a family who i think loves me, things have been going rather okay lately, and i have never been through really painful situations….

but no matter what i feel like like there’s something missing…like i’m the odd one everywhere i go.

i hate myself. i hate the way i look, the way i speak, think, live, act….

the truth is i don’t want to die…. but i don’t wanna live either – i just want […]

I fell in love with this guy I met online. This all started in the summer of 2013. We would talk for days on end, and he made me feel so happy. We are 1,200 miles apart but that never stopped me. Well, in September I get my phone taken away and I don’t get to talk to him. In January  I get my phone back and I try to talk to him, but he ignores me. So I gave up. Its been hurting so bad. On top of that my parents, ooh don’t even start. Last week I attempted with 15 prescribed pills (idk […]

Hello…First and foremost, I sincerely apologise for having another post already. It is probably quite rude to post again so soon, but so far this isn’t a great night and I just need to talk to someone. Again, I apologise and realise that it is rather rude to post twice within one night.

So I got finished talking with Her, and she says that I should date my close friend mentioned in my other post from tonight. She says that my friend could give me the affection and attention I want, and she says she can’t provide either of those, even if she wanted to. I […]

can someone please help me before i do something stupid and hurt the ones that love me i dont know who to turn to. im just reaching out for help.

If you are very submissive, you have a hard time saying no, and/or your indecisive may I suggest getting a Master. A nice master helps. Being completely owned by someone helps,… in fact in my case it fixed my suicidal  thoughts completely.

Get a Master

It really helps if you need control in your life….well it did for me……….idk

How much clonazepam and temazepam woul someone have to take in order to kill themselves?

She won’t talk to me at school anymore. She won’t even look at me. When we managed to arrange a meetup on omegle, she disconnected for no apparent reason. When my closest friend, the only other person besides her who knows about my depression & suicide attempts, confronted her about it, she says she just doesn’t know what to do anymore. She has replacements for me, i’m not actually special. She supposedly cares, but then why won’t she talk? It hurts. I’m cutting more and more often now…on my hips, where nobody can see it, even at swim practice.

Good evening,

It’s fair to say I am struggling. I’m 35, been suffering with anxiety and depression for 3 years. I also have severe IBS, or in other words I get really ill a lot and the doctors don’t know why. My anxiety has lot of unwanted symptons, the worse one is feeling really cold and tight across the right side of my body. Weird huh? I can seemingly handle one or even 2 at a time, but all 3 and it’s too much.

Of course I’ve tried everything, and I mean everything. I’ll have periods when I think I’m getting to grips with it all and […]

I suffer from dysthymia, or persistent depressive disorder as it’s called now. I’ve been like this since I was 13, so for 20 years I’ve been in this continuous depressed state, with the occasional bouts of major depression. I’ve been on meds for 10 years.

Sometimes I think maybe my natural state of being is depressed and the meds are just some sort of weight suppressing my true state. When I think this way I accept my depression. I accept I will never be happy. I accept I will never be loved. I have no hopes, wants or dreams. This is what I am. What I […]