I dont like living here my sisters like a frenemy, Everything she says is backhanded
like a backhanded compliment its tense and awkward with my dad, Think no eye contact as
we pass each other or in the same room, yea you know how that goes My moms a dumb *****
On top of that I bought all these clothes online(large and 1x) and they still fit kind of tight
They don’t fit where you could wear em and look cute, I think if I lost twenty pounds theyd fit good,
well anyways yea that too and everyone is telling me shit ’cause im not […]

Nothing will ever be the same again. I’m broken and can’t be fixed. You promised you’d never leave me, promised you loved me. Made me trust you, made me feel safe. Now you’re gone I’m empty. People tell me it will get easier, I’ll move on and be happy again but they don’t know how I’m feeling. I don’t want to move on, I don’t want to be happy again. I don’t deserve to be. I had a family and I lost it, I had it taken from me. Nothing’s ever going to be okay again.

I want to die I stnd in the midle of the rode and almost got killed by a car in school but the car stoped -.- what a disapointment

if I could die today I’d take that chance… I hate being on this earth was living with somebody love somebody that doesn’t love me anymore i wish God will just take me out of this fuckef up movie called life

Tomorrow can you be my friend? And tell me that it will last forever in the battle that defines our end.. What is loss? What is the meaning if you never win?

A bleeding from a steel so strong.. And maybe I can mend a wish for you. Tomorrow can I be your friend? Like something we can hold on to in a fear that only guides our hands… But something that we’ll both live through.

I’m holding..holding on to the bitter sides. Holding on because ..I don’t know why, but I’m trying.. To think of more than just my faults. I’m going back to […]

I have been depressed very much my whole life and have been denying the fact the last year, I’ve been impotent for the last few months and raped when i was 6, been without a best friend or just someone i can trust in over year and have been living in tough surroundings, in early 2012 i joined my father for a 3 day trip to Wroclaw, Poland, staying at The Monopol. I have been dreaming and thinking about suicide for a lot of time already and everyday i felt worse until in the second day in Wroclaw i snapped, i couldnt handle myself anymore i […]

Why is it supposed to be this way? I’ve given him my all but he has chosen to be with too many other people.

so I’ve decided there is nothing to live for. if you want to know look at my former story.

anyway:

I don’t have a rope but I have a scarf and a wire

I tried to hang myself using the scarf (short drop) when i felt the pressure around my neck it is not that painful? is this how it supposed to be?

is the painful part when I struggle with breathing?

now why am I here instead of struggling with hanging?

the chair is heavy , I couldn’t kick it away using my feet ..I got my feet back to it (i got tempted I guess). but now I have […]

I  feel like killing myself again, I feel so lost.Like I have no purpose and each day I live my life meaninglessly. I don’t know what to do with myself anymore , what can I do? I’m a failure,I have no future.Today I found out that I have a 24% in my Algebra 2 honors class(I’m  doing good in all my other classes).I’m so stressed out from going to that class the only work we got in that class are 6 online tests with 20-50 questions and I didn’t know anything.On top of that I don’t really feel comfortable around the teacher and don’t want to ask her […]

people won’t reply to me.
1.because they don’t like my post.
2.cause they know my scars face.
3.cause i am from a 3rd world country.
4.reasonings like the first and 3rd problems led to temporary depression.the 2nd reasoning led to
Sucide.most of you here are just depressed.so live this site to suiciders and treat your depression.
But if you are a looser well get a life.hello.and some of you here are helpers.and keep helping.period

Any one know of any ideas??? I can’t do this anymore. I feel like shooting myself but we don’t have any guns… &&& Yeahh..  Let me know if you guys have any ideas that are easy & painless… So I can finally be at peace. Thanks 🙂

I went to work today and found out I lost my job. I only had it to pay some bills off before I checked out. Just happened sooner than I thought. I’m going to take a long nap, because I didn’t sleep at all last night fighting demons in my head. I’m going to wake up and start packing my apartment up so when I take off people can get all my stuff before Obama does. First I was upset, but just the way my whole life has gone. So whats new as usual. Start the final countdown as started!!!

SHould I leave a note? No […]

Do you think your depression is a choice or a disease? I always felt that it was my rationality to be the reason, my situation/philosophy, but couldn’t a physical disorder (like the theory of serotonin lacking) be the real base of the thought process?

What do you think of the phrase “move on”?  It bothers me sometimes.   It seems to intensify my suicidal thoughts.

I grew up a timid kid because I was too afraid to think of the things people were saying or thinking about me. Not even the kid I remember calling me out in front of a crowd when I was masked as a privileged, popular, loving liar throughout high school. I was scared enough to never admit to anyone and not myself. I knew I would die before I told even myself that I was gay. I almost scared myself to death.
Not that I cant find a thing to be scared of for being gay, I never knew how to be loved […]

You promised at the very least we would always be friends and after all this time, you walk away and never look back and im just supposed to be ok with this. I’m not fucking ok at all!! I HATE MYSELF!! I’m tired of dragging this out and pretending like everything is going to be ok.. it’s NOT ok and I dont have any hope it ever will be.

I can’t stand the pain I am in any longer. Doctors and social workers tell me to be strong, focus on what I have rather than what I have lost. I’ve tried, it doesn’t work, I can’t do it. How can I focus on my kids when I know I am wrong for them? I can’t give them what they need and deserve. I had a family…. not perfect but we were a unit, I knew my role, I knew what to expect each day…. I had a job, I had a home, I had someone who loved me and now it’s all gone. Ripped […]

I have been cutting myself and taking pillno since the seventh grade now I’m graduated from high school and I still have no will to live and nothing to love for I’m not going to college and I don’t have a job I don’t keep in touch with my family and I live with my boyfriend who claims he loves me but heats on me and spends every sends he can with his friends I however don’t have Frieda and I cannot keep them the more I think about my life the more I relize that I really don’t have a life I don’t have […]

Do you suspect, as I do, that human extinction could be the meaning of life?  That perhaps our creator/s, such as they are, are allowing all this pain and torture and misery just waiting for humanity to figure it out and do the right thing (stop making new people, stop continuing the cycle of horror for each new generation?).  What if this is the test of our selflessness?  To see if we will selfishly choose to perpetuate the human race thereby subjecting billions of lives to immesurable sufferings or if we will selflessly decide that humanity on the whole has shown itself unworthy of continuation […]

Ok, so this is just how I’m feeling. I’m not sure what to write as all I wanna do is cry. I can’t see any real light and feel bullied. Everyone always says how I’m the life of the party, the fun one. It’s funny how they can’t see it’s all one big act and I’m so dead inside that its not even funny. My rage at myself is constant, and I know it’s my fault, which further enrages me. I do stupid things just to feel. Just to feel alive. I know they will cause me more pain, and I know it will create […]