Im the worst.. confusing…self centered.. dramatic ***** I know… Im a cheating whore… and a living mistake… the biggest waste of breath on earth.. kill me now please so I wont continue to fuck things up…
Ever since I was 10 I have wanted to end it and now I’m sure.a girl I love more than anything is engaged to someonelse. My heart has gotten me into more problems i cant take I just want to cut it out everyone I have ever loved has left me I am sure there is no god so what do I have to lose I’m going to slit my wrist and have it end I need help.
So, here I am again, with all of these issues. I laid in bed last night and thought about everything I’ve been through, and I really don’t understand what I did to have a life like this. I try and try but its never good enough, I can try to make my life better but every time I do, it goes right back down hill, its like I’m a huge ball that the wind blows up a mountain, and right when I get to the top, the rocks pop me and I just die down again, I cant keep patching up my holes. I always […]
I’m anorexic.
No one knows
and I doubt anyone would care.
she hears these voices in her head.
telling her she should be dead.
she listens and believes it all
she lets them push her down
she lets em’ make her fall.
she smiles and she doesn’t frown.
she acts like nothings got her down.
but I know.
I know.
the truth.
The hate comes in stampedes
and tramples on her heart.
she just wants to make it through
she just wants to somehow survive.
she shines all the light shes got.
tries to overcome the dark.
but she can’t seem to beat it.
no she can’t seem to free herself.
And she acts like nothings going […]
Hi friends. Haven’t had anyone to talk to who is going through the same problems I am right now. I’m always told that there are others who have it worse than me, but I only take that as a nicer way of saying “I don’t care enough.” For starters, I am gay. I have known it since age 12, and am now 16. No one understands what it’s like to feel what I feel, and anyone who did left my high school. I go to an all-girls school, so it’s especially hard for me, since I’m too awkward to talk to any of the students […]
fuck you all, fuck this shit. Invite me to a party just to humiliate me and make fun of me. They told me to go kill myself, so fuck it why not! im not even depressed anymore just tired of this shit. Maybe ill just cut and we will see what happens
losing her was always one of my greatest fears….and now it’s happened and I can’t take it. I need her. Without her i have nothing….life is just….pointless. I’m numb. and I’m weak…
I don’t know about everyone else, but when someone comments on a post or posts that they just want to die, it hurts me….
No one deserves to feel like that, yet so many people do.
Everyone deserves to smile, yet so many people don’t.
No one deserves to be emotionally beaten badly enough to want to die.
Death is a very serious thing, and suicide can be prevented, but a suicidal person can’t do it alone.. THEY NEED HELP. Everyone needs helps sometimes
my song {one of them} :
(Verse 1/Intro)
Shaking here in pain
I know im to blame.
Cant get away!
Wanna fly away from here,
to no place that is near.
Gotta get away,
let my soul drift away.
(Chorus)
Watch me hang
watch me die
theres not much left
just watch and cry
im leaving now
just say goodbye
you lost me to suicide.
Watch me hang
watch me die
theres not much left
just watch and cry
im leaving now
just say goodbye
you lost me to suicide.
(Verse 2)
Hurry up cuz i feel this way.
Get me out! Get me out!
Let me outta this place.
Suffering over and over
its like this everyday
step off the chair and begin to hang.
(Chorus)
(Verse 3)
Time is ticking
hours pass by
I feel this way
and i dont […]
On Facebook, my cousin has been sending me messages that upset me even more about my past. Plus because my depressions just getting worse and worse this is what she thinks:
*****, your going crazy and your always depressed. why dont you just stop feeling sorry for yourself and GET A REAL LIFE!! Besides noone said that life was fair. Other people get raped and beat up. Do you see them crying about it or making a big deal about it?? Your ALONE N**** noone cares!!!! Oh except your self. Its a wonder why youve lost friends for this. It gets old and annoying! Everyone gets […]
When I was younger,
I thought
the world would spare my heart.
But as i got older
I found,
it would only tear it apart
I didn’t expect such evil.
For i’d only seen the good.
I didn’t think it’d break me.
no little girl should.
But then the stones started flying.
and the sticks were suddenly sharp.
and the little happy girl inside.
she fell into the dark.
Bye bye innocence.
sorry to see you go.
hello malevolence.
i am at an all time low.
infinite sorrow.
no hope for tomorrow.
you took my heart
and you tore it apart.
my sadness magnified.
Everyone has their story so I’ll make mine brief.
I never had a mother or father, or any consistent adult in my life so I guess I fall under the general “abandonment issues” blanket. It’s been 15 years of therapy and various psychiatric drugs for anxiety and depression, yet I still don’t feel that my issues can be explained by such a meaningless phrase. I’m 22 and have always had difficulties making and keeping friends so I have none at the moment. In the last few years my desire to make friends has completely vanished. I used to vacillate between hope and sever depression, but I […]
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this all actually started a long time ago , in my first grade they were lots of kids who hated me for no reason they called me names they were spitting on me and once almost hit me but i ran away.
it was like that for a long time and since the 6TH grade i started cutting they stopped bulling but i started cutting i was in a depression  i felt lonely like nobody loves me.
everynight i cry myself to sleep
now im in 8TH grade i have […]
why am I still alive? my parents hate me. i always leave things ‘half-done’, according to them. everything i touch is ruined. i don’t deserve anything. my one good friend is now a minecraft addict. he hates me and now he speaks fluent insult to me. the voices in my dreams. they also hate me, like everyone else in this world. i just sit down and compose music. dark, depressing music. music that sums up my life:
depressed and worthless
there is nothing I can do.
except kill myself.
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I’ve been trying to write this post since Monday.. funny how this awful feeling didn’t go away at all since then it’s now two in the morning on a Friday. I miss my friends I regret cutting them off the way I did but I remember how badly my depression set in and I was doing everything I could to get rid of it so I distanced myself from them until I could get better. Earlier this week I messaged someone who I hadn’t seen for a while on Facebook and they couldn’t remember me at all and it wasn’t them not remembering me that hurt […]
My good, close (probably best) friend’s girlfriend killed herself in October 2011. She walked out in front of a train. After hearing about her death, I’ve become obsessed. Ive been researching her story, statistics of suicides by trains, and even just watching trains pass in my free time. I’m so desperate to know if this girl felt any pain, or if she died on impact. I want to know what was going through her head as she waited for the train, and what she was thinking as she walked out onto the tracks, knowing those would be her last steps. I want to know who […]
How fast do trains have to be going to kill you? Is it scary? Do you die immediately? I’ve been thinking a lot about just jumping in front of a train and praying for immediate death.
Am I jinxed? I recently found some good decent honest guys to hang out with like every other weekend, or once a month to just play D&D for about 4 hours. But when I fucking finally am able to go, my wife (who refuses to go out of her own way to find her own friends) has a fit and keeps me stuck at home. I say stuck because I don’t have people whom I can shake hands with and spend time with other than my wife. I love her, but damn it, I need to enjoy the company of FRIENDS, too! This is the […]