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I still want to die..

by englishboy. 4/27/2014

written by englishboy.

..this is 10 years of low self esteem, depression, suicidal thoughts and anxiety.

This is 4 years and 4 months since I first discovered this website.

I still want to die.

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People always talk about holding on, it gets better and this isn’t your life forever, but when is the way I feel about myself or my life going to differ from the past 10 years? I’ve been shattered and broken by depression and this idea of suicide.. I’ve held, and held, and held, for what? Nothing has changed the way I feel and believe me, I have really put in maximum effort and tried to change […]

4/27/2014 2 comments

â‰¡DECEPTIONâ‰¡

by StruggleOn 4/4/2014

written by StruggleOn

“Confidence is 10% hard work, and 90% delusion, just thinking foolishly that you will be able to do what you want”

I was fed such fallacious bullshit. Â Fetch that medicine, but I’m done ingesting it like a puppet, kay?

What I aim to disclose, is all this ‘you can get anywhere with confidence’ is going to make me narcoleptic in due time. I’m pretty jaded already. Â What I perceived is, whether my effort is made with or without morale; it ultimately ends up the same. Â Abominable or indifferent. Â It’s just so invariable. Â A situation where effort is put forth with or without confidence is so analogous to […]

4/4/2014 8 comments

here but horrible

by LittleFishBigFish 2/25/2014

written by LittleFishBigFish

Well, turns out that I never got around to killing myself. There always seems to be something that stops me for a good day or two before the thoughts seem to flood back.

In the mean time, I feel like a horrible person because whenever I am honest to a mutual friend they turn their offense around on me and make me feel bad about myself. I know this isn’t fair, I know that I shouldn’t bother or care yet all I feel inside is that I am a bad person who makes other people angry, a problem – it’s one of my reasons to die.

2/25/2014 4 comments

So

by ella 2/18/2014

written by ella

i havent posted in about three years and its absolutely crazy how much has changed. i was a deeply depressed little girl but now im a mildy depressed teenager! great. Â Its weird how i can be the happiest ball of fucking light and next wanting to jump in front of a 16 wheeler. I have no friends that i have actual connections with. but hey not complaining cause i love being with myself. and another odd thing about myself which i still cant figure out is the fact that im vain as hell but loathe myself at the same damn time? I think im the […]

2/18/2014 6 comments

Early tomorrow morning

by whyyyy 2/12/2014

written by whyyyy

Early tomorrow morning 02/13/14 I’m going to go and try to attempt to jump off a very tall bridge/canyon. I guess I’m here just saying that I don’t know if I’m 100 percent going to actually jump, but there is a very good chance. Â Some of you may know a little about myself from my last couple posts. I guess I am just writing this because it may be my last post and I hope all of Â you the very best. This site has helped me live a little bit longer and try and get through but there’s just to much pain to endure.

2/12/2014 6 comments

I’m New

by Nobody_Cares 2/11/2014

written by Nobody_Cares

Hey I’m new to this website and I think I might be in the right place. So a little bit about myself… Well, I’m a cutter and I have tried suicide about 5 times already. My mom told me that if I really wanted to die, I would have succeeded already. And my dad told me that he would help me by getting the pills or talking to a doctor to put me down… So, I might make rants or post the suicide notes/letters I wrote on here. Maybe if I try again, I’ll post. Anyway, bye everyone… For now.

2/11/2014 4 comments

Why?

by LetItGo 1/27/2014

written by LetItGo

Why do you care?
Why do you stay here?
Why do you comfort me?
Why do you try to help me?
Why do you try to tell me lies about myself?
Why do you try to prevent me from cutting?
Why do you think I should stay here?
Why?!

1/27/2014 3 comments

Suicide project

by the black widow 1/25/2014

written by the black widow

How could this site be so addictive!

thank you guys ,you Â for making me feel better about myself!

1/25/2014 3 comments

The right of narcissus narcissist to be unhappy.

by PennyroyalTea 10/8/2012

written by PennyroyalTea

I’m not optimistic about the future. I think my life is already done. I know, or I think so, that I have skills and abilities. If I wanted to, I could do a lot of things, I could be anything: aÂ genius, a hero, a loved one. Sometimes I feel like I were God, with all theÂ possibilitiesÂ and a whole life in front of me. And sometimes, I feel like a turtle: small, useless in most of the cases and always quiet andÂ hiding. I know I’m not doing any of what I could do, just because I’m too stupid for doing it and, sincerely, too lazy. A […]

10/8/2012 2 comments

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