I never want to leave my house but I can’t stand being here. I am a living contradiction. I don’t know who I am anymore. I’m constantly dreaming that I get some lucky break and will be able to live my life one way or another but I’m not delusional, I obviously know that can’t and won’t happen. I know it’s my fault and I should’ve just done what needed to be done, but I don’t want to live in the first place the only reason I’m alive is so I don’t hurt my family. But now I’m just a disaster to them. I hate […]
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agoraphobic
Things would be so much easier if I knew how to not care what people think. Im waay to sensitive.
I just wanna be able to open up and let people help.
HOW DO I NOT GIVE A SHT (within reason)Â I am so desperate because I’m in a constant state of paranoia/fear/guilt. My hearts always racing aswell as my thoughts, which hinders my concentration when Im working. I dont eat much at all because the nervousness suppresses my appitite, I dont think this is a panic attack because its always there> I think I have an overactive amygdala, (always wired/startles easily even when anticipating, crys over […]
I’m starting to become a regular here :3 I’d like to meet some friends, to finally have someone who knows, to talk to.
anyway. I’ll be going to the city in about…3 hours. this is gonna be hard. (I’m agoraphobic by the way)
Havn’t been out in around a month and a half. and before that, I was out before the winter! I should try though, look at the brighter side of the outside world. hey, I’ll be able to see that cute guy at the shake bar. haha! I’m one for peircings and longer hair ;D -cat whistle-
rightio, I’m off the take a shower.
p.s this […]