I guess it all started when I was sixteen; funny thinking how long ago it seems even though I’m only 20 now, Or maybe before. I was never happy as a kid, dad never around, mom always at work, an abusive grandfather. It was when I was sixteen that I decided to do something about it. I ran away. I ran away from Arizona and took the greyhound to long beach. I don’t know what my actual plan was once I got there but regardless everything went wrong. I ended up having to get surgery to save my life and spent almost the whole month […]
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I legitimately want to die.
I can’t tell anyone.
They say I’m a good person. That may be true. But I feel like dead weight. I really do not want to talk myself out of this.
I hate the idea of not being able to make a truly positive impact in someone’s life. It feels like the people closest to me find me intolerable.
I feel intolerable. For thinking this at all, I feel it is all the more reason to stop monologuing and go through with it.
I’ve killed myself so many times in my mind.
I don’t know who I am.
Blame it […]
That’s what everyone keeps telling me. Don’t worry **** it will get better it always does. For me i have never had an incident were something gets better. I am 18 years old this is my first post. I have never actually been happy. Until about almost a year ago i met this girl. She is the one. She understood me, she was my kinda girl. She loved me and i still love her. Over the summer i had to move to Alaska. I am still here posting this at 4:45 in the morning cause i have sleeping problems recently. I feel like this girls is […]