It’s strange to be in this position again.
Writing on here as well as writing notes. This time is different, it is clearer for me. Easier to see what is happening. It’s like I’m aware of my own decline but I can’t do anything to stop it. I’m stuck in this debilitating state and I just can’t see what to do.
I’m too scared to tell anyone who could help out of fear of others finding out. I can’t help imagining what will happen if I decide to go though with it.
I just want someone who matters to me to ask if I’m okay.