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after a year

by fakingit 3/6/2013

written by fakingit

ok so im noticing a fucking pattern.

every time a suicide attempt fails within a few days something good comes out of it.

with that ive been majorly depressed and tried commiting suicide the other night well no duh i failed.

go back to a year ago, i had a crush on my friend who had a girlfriend so i respected that and tried not to make this a big fucking deal…to late for that. my friend is really suicidal and last yr i always had my suicide notes/poems with me taped to my binder for school well he saw it and read it once he […]

3/6/2013 0 comment

Psycho

by Rain 1/10/2013

written by Rain

I sat at myÂ desk in school wondering what it would be like ifÂ I stabbedÂ myselfÂ through the heart withÂ that guys extremely sharpÂ pencil.Â Death by writing utensil. A thought that drew a smile on my face.
Ugh that stupid noise.Â A noise that interrupted the only thought that madeÂ me smile today.
I concentrate a bit harder, butÂ it is only clear to me that the sound comes from the front of class. I look up.
“RRrrruhh. RRraaayy.”
My brain starts to work in time to hearÂ the teacher call my name for, what I could tell by herÂ tone was, theÂ fifth time.
“Rain!Â Is […]

1/10/2013 7 comments

I feel all alone

by iwantaflamethrower13 12/9/2012

written by iwantaflamethrower13

I’m 12. Freaking 12. And I have a suicide note written.

When I was 11, I fell into a depression. I wasn’t quite sure why, I guess my parents pissed me off too much. I couldn’t go a day without crying. Sure, call me a crybaby.

It was too much stress. I had projects due, tests upcoming, essays my dad forced me to write. IÂ hyperventilatedÂ at least five times.

One day, I was printing out another essay when my dad was yelling at me in the other room. I looked down and saw the printer cord…and then suicide popped into my mind. Why not?

I wrapped the cord around my […]

12/9/2012 4 comments

alternative actions for my day…

by claira 11/4/2012

written by claira

I am making a list of things that I could do to help me make it to Tuesday…
aside from stuffing my face with crap (which does not help in any way) what can I realistically do / accomplish / come up with / fabricate / engineer / occupy my time with / invent / rearrange / be proactive about / just to get on with it?

* take a shower
* eat a healthy breakfast
* work on details of a resume to help myself on Tuesday so the appointment I am putting such stock and hope in is able to help me go forwards…..

11/4/2012 6 comments