i’ve began cutting again .. it seems when the blood runs all my depression washes away with it. the open wound is like my soul beginning to glow shinning bright to destroy all the darkness. But the darkness still lingers, in my mind. Forever trapped, like a maze turning into every dead end. Searching. Looking. Finding my light that brings me out of this horrific nightmare. I feel like my mind has put walls up all around my thinking. I can’t think too much anymore as my brain begins to hurt and spin. The walls only fall down at night when i wish to sleep. […]
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Black Shadow
I’m normally OK, living my life each day as it comes. But once in awhile there is something inside my head (something not SOMEONE) trying to control me. Making me feel useless, upset and like I have no purpose in this world. Its like a big black shadow trying to tear me away from my life, my son, my family. I can only fight it for so long. Its strong, stronger than I am at times. It hurts me. It never leaves but I can ignore it or quiet it for awhile but it always comes back. It wants me to die and it wont […]