I’m normally OK, living my life each day as it comes. But once in awhile there is something inside my head (something not SOMEONE) trying to control me. Making me feel useless, upset and like I have no purpose in this world. Its like a big black shadow trying to tear me away from my life, my son, my family. I can only fight it for so long. Its strong, stronger than I am at times. It hurts me. It never leaves but I can ignore it or quiet it for awhile but it always comes back. It wants me to die and it wont stop unless it wins. The more I seek help the stronger it gets.
Somebody tell me that I am not crazy.
Does anyone know what this feels like?