if all the colours of the rainbow
could make my day less grey.
make it filled with sunshine
and more than just a boring day.
My day used to be exciting
with things to do and time to play.
but now its just colourless,
with depression my only friend.
always making it self aware,
and there is no end……………………………………
I know its there, ive felt it before. I must find it. I didnt know i could feel so good and alive. It comes so naturally to most other people. But for me o have tp get it from alcohol or abuse of my perscription drugs. The feeling of clearance, contentment, knowing what i want. Actually joy, insane cobfidence in myself. I know what ive been missing all my life. Its so frusterating to thonk that ove been deprived of it all my life while others ignorantly take it for granted.
Why cant i have these goos feelings of confidence and joy regularly?
I am desperate […]
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