Having been a cutter since I was 11 sometimes I have trouble getting blood to satisfy my fucked up mind… So today I put safety pins into the veins in my wrist and breast and it bled a lot. I had hope for a second I would bleed to death but sadly I’m alive. I just  want  to die. I should get a bigger needle
The tears they fall unfiltered and pure
Pouring out pain that nothing can cure
Tumbling, cascading like the waterfall
The vivid mark of agony’s call
Those salty drops of feminine curse
Trapped under weight, day by day growing worse
no one to catch them, no one to see
No one else lost in this hell-hole but me
Screaming in terror at the walls closing in
Dropping to my knees, my head starts to spin
Feeling the rage within growing stronger
What in the hell have I done that’s so wrong?
The quickness of breath and tightness of chest
I have endured through it all, gave […]
Closed are my tired eyes
Gracefully the tears fall
As i begin to lose it all
I take a shot of whiskey
As my head begins to race
The cigarette is still burning
The sweet smoke is all I can taste
My body is going numb
No longer can i feel my toes
All i can see our my tears
As they fall onto my breast
There are scratches and dried blood
Pretty purpled bruises decorate my chest
Lipstick smeared and hair full of knots
I shove more pills in my mouth
Chasing it with three more shots
My body is beyond broken my mind completely lost
A lesson […]
~The Raven~
Dedictated To Storm
(Espen Andersen – Strid)
RIP
The Angelic Process – Million Year Summer
There is a Raven caged within my breast,
But what his name, there is no breast shall know
Save mine, nor what it is that drives him so,
upward & downward, in relentless quest —
That silent rage, baffled but unsuppressed, […]