I tried hanging myself with a shoelace just now. I wasn’t off the ground, it was tied around my door handle and the other end my neck while I sat on the ground. I’ve even seen a successful video on this being done and I don’t understand why mine wasn’t successful. Anyway, I could barely breathe and I could feel myself getting lightheaded and my ears even felt weird like almost numb, but I sat there for a very long ass time and did not pass out or die. Wth! Can anyone explain why this could have failed? It was not bc I didn’t wait […]
The corridors, of that black nightmare. When your soul was raped, in your death.
The sound of the devil, was the first line. In the background, a Mega Man. Shooting his blast, his color is blue. The music alters, I speak it’s colors. In the name of death, I seek for Mary, and the celestial. The child, that will teach humanity.
Mother. There used to be a cosmic warrior. The music suddenly turns so beautifully.
Saying the words “if.” Goddess, with her Trident. A base so that I may heal.
Like the celestial child of celibacy. Away from the apolypse. Gather our warriors.
Shepherd, the […]
It’s like don’t have to breathe, but have to wait. Till’ you say something again, so I can breather and live. But without you here.
Your heart so hard and cold
The tears I hold as you all laugh at me.
Others not moving an inch, standing where they may
Your words so filled with silly hate.
Your hate is jealousy in the purest form.
I smile and pretend that the words don’t cut like knives.
That I can’t hear the little whispers in the halls
I don’t understand what I did.
I just want it to end, I want it to end here and now
Your hate is your poison and you choking on it.
Every breath you take, hate
Every move you make, hate
Every look you give, and […]
This is going to sound ridiculous, but I don’t think my body was meant to last as long as it had. I tried to kill myself a couple of years ago and failed (obviously). I am currently in my first year of university, and a lot of my joints have been giving me increasingly more problems. It started with just my ankles, but now my wrists, knees and shoulders are paining more and more often. It’s as if my body it breaking because it was not meant to go on as long as it has.
I also see nothing in the future. All my ‘friends’ have […]
I’m here, they’re here.
Where am I?
Invisible, alone.
Not heard, not seen, I don’t excist.
Quiet, all by myself.
Useless, can’t be heard.
Sad, angry, unimportant.
That’s what I am.
Lonely, can’t breathe.
Alone, without help.
Lost, never to be found.
In a place that never excisted.
‘There once was a ghost of a boy who liked to live in the shadows, so he wouldn’t frighten people. His job was to wait for his sister, who was still alive. She wasn’t afraid of the dark because she knew that’s where her brother was. At night, when darkness came to her room, she would tell her brother about the day. She would remind him how the sun felt on his skin and what the air felt like to breathe, or how snow felt on his tongue. And that reminded her, that she was still alive.’
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Please, […]
Life will be fine. God is with you. Just breathe. I was really suicidal almost 2yrs ago. I was trying all sorts of methods than 1 day i tried a certain method and literally almost passed out. I needed a way to get out of trying to kill myself. One day I was searching online and found this place.I wrote did amyone want to talk because I needed a good friend to vent to and I wanted them to vent back. Guess what? I found my Bestest friend on here! Me and him just connected. It was so akward at first, we would email back […]
Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small and needy
Warm me up
And breathe me
Breathe Me – Sia
That moment when you make a connection with a song….
Help, I have done it again
I have been here many times before
Hurt myself again today
And the worst part is there’s no one else to blame
Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small and needy
Warm me up
And breathe me
Ouch I have lost myself again
Lost myself and I am nowhere to be found,
Yeah I think that I might break
I’ve lost myself again and I feel unsafe
Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small and needy
Warm me up
And breathe me
Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold […]
Most days, I don’t think I’m addicted to cutting. I can get by without it, but then sometimes, I can’t breathe or think until I let the blood flow. Does anyone else feel like that? We don’t have enough alcohol in our house for me to have an addiction (my mom only drinks wine) but I never want to hang out with my friends unless we can drink or smoke.
I used to be depressed. I cut, and hurt myself, even thought of suicide because I thought there was no other way out. I know a lot of you will dismiss this post as garbage, it may even get taken down, but I want to help. I would know more than most that sometimes you just need to have someone reach out to you, let them make the first move. Now that I’m healing, I’ve made it my life goal to help at least one other person through what I experienced. If you want someone to talk to, let me know. I’m not offering professional […]
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