today i took a bath. its funny how you forget how much you love something until your denied it for such a period of time. all day at work i wished to be home in my tub. alone with the warm bubbly water. relaxed. i could drown if i wanted to. itd be easy. i could make a slice in my arm because i remember how my situation in life would be put on hold,as i count out the things i hate about myself in my own skin.
i really dont want to do this anymore. but for now i will just enjoy the water. […]