Happy birthday to the one and only love of my life. No contact since 2008 but still the same love, always have been.
but still
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day two, figured I should try a second post just to get out there again. Appreciate all the support from people. Today is a little better, still feel like someone pissed in my cheerios but still better than yesterday. Don’t feel as bad as yesterday and can focus on my work a bit more. Still just feels like same shit different day though but I’m trying to work on it.
so I met someone about a month ago and since then we’ve met and hung out a few times and talked consistently. All is well, and I don’t care if it doesn’t escalate. I’m happy being friends.
However, I feel like I’ve worn out my welcome. Conversations have become shorter and less frequent. Less uhh, ‘lovey dovey’ style. No more emojis or flirtatious conversations. Talking in general has almost come to a complete halt.
And by all means, it’s fine. Her life is not mine to keep. But still, it sucks gradually drifting especially with all the effort I try and put in.
I guess what I have […]
I recently ended up moving in with my dad who hasn’t been in my life for 7 years because my mother kicked me out after I attempted suicide in July. She likes to believe that my entire depression that I’ve had for 3 years has been fake. Being with my dad is definitely better than being with my mother… except I feel like I’ve screwed up his life now. He isn’t used to living with his kids and isn’t used to spending money on anyone but himself so I get in a lot of crap for being expensive. I think about trying again everyday. But […]
I Give Those Upper Classmen On My Bus My Thanks Sarcasitically!!! (Rants)
Are the people of society today kidding me? Like what is wrong with them all? Is it really funny to throw grapes at people while they’re talking to someone and it is none of their business to do anything like that?
A long while back earlier on the bus ride home from my high school I was pelted with grapes. There were no more than three, that hit but obviously were aimed at me and they were laughing about it! Is it really so funny to you to pick on people smaller and younger than you? For your information, and if I could snap my fingers I […]