so okay. me and my best friend had a very deep and emotional talk. and me and her are both suicidal. we talked for a long time. and what we got from talking is an agreement. kinda. we talked about killing ourselves, and decided that its not the right time, and its not worth doing that now because we’re still teenagers (im 16 and she’s 15) so we havent even lived life. that doesnt mean that we have to change who we are, or what we do. just putting something off for a while. i guess its a good thing in a way. im glad […]
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Conditional Love
Life.The last couple of days have seen the spawning of a journey out of the abyss. So much deep emotion, (confusion, anger, fear, and hopelessness) was building up and needed to be released into the atmosphere. I still think about those things (meaninglessless, conditional love, my mistakes, my future) but when I feel myself slipping asunder, I mentally create a hypothetical situation that I know would be 100% unbearable, then measure how much worse it is than my present state.
I talk to the Universe, thanking it for taking care of the souls who have departed, praying for their happiness.Then I ponder on things completely unrelated […]