I’m 29. I have a wife, two kids, a  job, a home, a dog, a master’s degree, friends, etc.
Nothing makes me happy. Nothing excites me. I look forward to nothing. I don’t want to talk to anyone. I do nothing at work, and then nothing at home. Every day. Everyday I feel like I’m on the edge of a cliff about to fall off. I’m terrified someone will ask me Do you even care about me? This job? Anything? and I’ll answer honestly: no.
I don’t ever see myself caring about this absurd existence. I don’t matter. The people I know don’t matter. No one matters. […]