there are an awful lot of stories on this site, but every story is different right? the base feelings of despair are mixed into all of them, but how you came to be there and what you plan to do is always different. most of us are suicidal, hence the name “the suicide project” i suppose. i am no exception. but maybe it’s time i told the whole story of how i came to be here and what i plan to do.
my story is not filled with rape or abuse or anything like that. ive never been the loner at the back of the […]
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Dark Cloud
Dispite the fact that this is not a personal chatting site I still hope I can fine some one to talk to.Dispite my my family and the friends I ,worked so hard to make, I find my self looking for some one to connect with.Dispite the fact that I found an awesome friend that got me in ever way that I couldn’t possibly crush on, becuase he was gay, I still ruined our friend ship by not being able to talk to him any more. Dispite finding and other cool person later one I still ran away becuase white guys don’t like tall black chicks. Dispite the fact I had a guy friend who liked me and was black I still couldn’t bear to let him hang out with such a boring, poor, unatractive person, when he can do much better. Dispite the fact that I am goraphobic messed up in most ways I still want to go out and just hang out with the people that shine brighter than the sun. Dispite the fact that I am a dark cloud pouring down rain and lighting. Dispite the fact i haven’t been lonely in three years I still feel the despair of being so diffrent that even is I was accepted by people no one should dare want to hang out with some one like me, even if they said they did I will only be a disappointment and a waste of time . I don’t know………….society is made for money, bright personalities,pretty people, and people who are smart. No matter how hard you try something’s are impossible to gain,I guess you only can work hard to fake it by make up, studying, and following thougths with the bright lives………….Dispite the fact this is not a personal chatting site I still hope for so e one to talk to even if it’s only short…..lol ……I like the terms for this site ….it’s ironic ……by reading it you still hope for what the terms say don’t hope for……lol….^^
written by animerocks500
I swear, I have lead bones. they weigh me down. I promise you, I have water in my lungs. I drown all the time. I don’t know why I feel this way. I’ve never known why and that is the worst part. I live in a happy family and i’m the dark cloud. i’m the rain on their parade. I guess you could say I have a great life and looking at it from another point of view, I can see how that would be true. but I feel like I am dead on the inside. and I wish I was on the outside. I’m […]
I live in a world where i am always unhappy. my grades are slipping and my parents yell all the time now or ignore me. My brother is their favorite they would give him the world if they could. But to them im just that other kid who was raised by baby sitters until the age of 10. I get bullied at school. I try to hide my depresion so i fit in. Iguess i’m pretty good at hiding it too. For a while nobody knew the dark cloud that surrounded my mind. i first thought about suicide when i was about 8 years old. […]