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It’s Back

by Shadowknite 4/1/2014

written by Shadowknite

So, it’s back. 8 yrs of pain. 4 years clean. 389 or something cuts. More are being added. It’s back. And it’s prolly gonna stay for equity a while.

Why? I had 6 people to go to.

1. Samantha. She is too busy with her life to bother with a cutters issues.

2. Rachael. She hardens me because a douchbag (the one that causes painful reminders) spread stuff around, and made her believe i am a liar.

3. Jessica. Hardly see her, and she’s too worn out to even notice my presence.

4. Brody. I see him in the day. But once schools out. . .

5. Josh. He has begun […]

4/1/2014 0 comment

by benna 3/17/2014

written by benna

I have been with Antonella for a couple of months, we laughed and exchanged opinions, she was very smart and at times i used to confess her something about myself..I asked her to be more intimate, she refused. She said no. I’m too fucked up in the head, she wouldn’t be right, i “need a special person”.

This thing haunts me. It haunts me. I can’t stay, i can’t sleep. She liked me. I swear my fucking balls she liked me. What is wrong, what is wrong, what

wrong with me and the people like me

3/17/2014 6 comments

by wethebroken 2/15/2014

written by wethebroken

I feel so lost.. So empty.

Everyone I talk to.. they disappear.

My thoughts are filled of suicide and selfharm thoughts.

All I do is disappoint my family….

And myself.

I hate myself more than people hate me, which is a lot..

Sometimes, I think about dying…

And I might do it.

I might end my life

2/15/2014 5 comments

To simply die would not be enough.

by Shreddable 5/19/2013

written by Shreddable

I’ve been arguing with myself over the topic of suicide for a while now. I randomly came across this site from a Google search about suicide and felt inclined to sign up and post something. I’ll be surprised if anyone even reads this. Or comments. Or offers help.

I’m deeply, horribly depressed, and I don’t get why. I’ve never been abused. I’ve never lost a loved one. I don’t come from a broken family. I grew up in a comfortable lifestyle. I have no reason to be depressed. Alas, I am. I’m empty inside.

Although I grew up in a comfortable home, I never had […]

5/19/2013 13 comments

Too tired.

by Cal 6/18/2012

written by Cal

I’m not even ridiculously sad anymore, I’m just exhausted with my life. Since I was a kid, there’s been no one even ninety percent genuine with me. My family are judgmental and selfish, and broke up when I was ten. I was constantly underachieving to my father’s standards and was disowned twice in my childhood before this final time, and my mother was more concerned with my (only by a couple years) younger brother. She’d told me she loved him more. I was always a very introverted kid. I loved reading and writing, and didn’t particularly like going out. I didn’t make friends very easily […]

6/18/2012 2 comments

Invisible

by humansdestroyhumanity 5/8/2012

written by humansdestroyhumanity

The lines in my hands

tell you their wisdom

while the tears in my eyes

tell you I’ve cried

the things they’ve done

and what they’ve seen

haunt me by day and night

While fireflies go across the sky

My regrets and mistakes crowd in

choking me and making me disappear

beneath their heaving darkness

A bloody cross

is all I see

condemning me to silence

for eternity

Without a voice

without a word

I become invisible

5/8/2012 78 comments

I want to disappear.

by NotReallyHereAtAll 3/10/2012

written by NotReallyHereAtAll

I want to disappear. I don’t think I want to die as such, I just don’t want to exist, either.

That’s it really, I just don’t want to exist anymore. If I could just flick a switch and not be here anymore, I would. I would do it straight away, no questions asked. I suppose that switch is basically a permanent one, a switch of life or death.

That’s the thing though, I’m unsure whether it’s suicide I want. I want to not be here but I don’t want to be dead.

So am I suicidal? Is it suicidal to just want to disappear?

I hate the word ‘suicide’, […]

3/10/2012 33 comments

:/

by silentalice 1/31/2012

written by silentalice

I don’t know what to do anymore. My home life is terrible. Therapy isn’t helping. I’m never happy. I’m always alone. All of my friends leave when I need them the most. I don’t want to die. I just don’t want to be here anymore.

1/31/2012 3 comments

Distraction

by KlashingKamille 11/27/2010

written by KlashingKamille

I hate life so fucking much. I hate everything. I want to die so much, I want to hurt, I want the shit beaten out of me, I want to have reasons for wanting to kill myself but I have none, and I have like, two friends left after The Betrayal.
But i cant do it.
I cant kill myself, Im afraid, not of death itself, but leaving oppurtunities.
I want first love, first kiss, first time, I want to see my little cousins grow up with me there.
But I hate life.
I have a house, food, clothes, family, all that you basically need.

11/27/2010 2 comments

Depressed for no great reasons…

by KlashingKamille 11/24/2010

written by KlashingKamille

Ive been depressed for a while, Im 14 years old and done with all the ‘all teenagers go through this phase’ bullshit. Ive gone psychologist to psychologist, from hospital to hospital, and happy pills. Im not depressed for any good reasons. I have a house. I have food. I have clothes. Im for the most part healthy. But i cry over the stupidest things, like how i look.

I was thinking about the fight with my ex-friends that caused me to drop out of school (im considering homeschool or just running away, even ‘therapeutic boarding school’ if we can afford it). I start crying everytime i […]

11/24/2010 5 comments

Emptiness

by KlashingKamille 11/18/2010

written by KlashingKamille

I feel ridiculous, having searched for a place to share my innermost feelings and thoughts of suicide…
I’m 14 years old, and have horrid self-esteem/confidence issues. I find myself repulsive, but yearn for love. I get no support from my family, not even my twin sister who hates me for getting attention i dont want. I go to a psychologist who tells me to go to school.
Did i mention i sort of dropped out, except i go every once in a while after my parents beat me.
I hurt so badly, over nothing. I have a house, food in my cupboards, clothes, im not […]

11/18/2010 6 comments

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