Consider the following, albeit imperfect, analogy.
The inventor of the automobile designed his creation to need both gasoline and oil. Remove one or the other and it will not function properly, if at all.
Then consider yourself a creation made by God, Who designed you as being both body and spirit. You feed yourself the best of foods (or medications) but you neglect feeding your spirit – you will be deficient in what it takes to make you *run* properly.
Trust me, friend. I scoffed for many years at God. Who needs it? I’m my own person, I am independent, I don’t need anyone or […]
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I’ve been trying to discover some meaning in life but keep coming to the conclusion that there isn’t one, because there isn’t. I wish I had a delusion like most people in order to get some fulfillment out of this, but I don’t, I never have, and I can’t lie to myself to create one. I’m too much of a realist, and I see how shitty this world is, and how pointless it all is and I just don’t want to be a part of it. I really hate life. Not mine in particular, although mine does indeed suck in many ways, but life in general. I […]
I’m scarred.
I have wounds on my body that won’t heal.
I’m tainted.
I have thoughts raging in my mind that won’t be silenced.
I’m desperate,
to find the place in which I know I belong.
I’m lonely.
Living in a house with no one to come home to.
I’m terrified,
that my life has meaning that I won’t discover.
I’m “different”.
I don’t share your thoughts, your opinions, or your ideas.
I’m tempted,
to end it all and move on to another world.
I’m tormented,
by the thoughts and the screams that I hide with a smile.
I’m healing.
Because these scars are only skin deep.
I’m learning,
to love myself and allow others to love […]
I am a twenty-one year-old who most recently spent 9 months putting together my suicide after many failed attempts since the age of twelve. I attended the Menninger Clinic and my life has changed drastically. At the end of the months it will have been six months without making serious suicide plans. After my release from the hospital I began a blog. For myself, but for others too. It shares my story, because I realized that I was not alone. By sharing my story, and sharing that I made it through the darkness, you might see some similarities and come to discover that you can […]
Hello my dear friends.
Today I am not here to rant about my feelings or my life that has fallen apart. I’m here to speak to you, hoping that this post will be a source of light in your time of struggle.
I call you my dear friends, because although I have probably never met any of you before, I believe that is what we are. We didn’t choose it, but each of us has been connected by a common cause. In some ways, many of you probably understand me much better than any of my closest friends. Depression isn’t something that can be easily explained; I […]