Today at school we had something called “challenge day.” Basically 100 students and 20 teachers get together, do trust exercises, and spill their guts to eachother. At the end of the whole thing, everyone feels so close. They all cried, hugged. I guess it was a big emotional event. I didn’t get to go though. The whole point of the program is to get people to realize everyone’s equal, nobody should be bullied, everyone should be accepted. I think that’s a bit hypocritical. Why do it if you’re going to exclude so many people from it? I’m not really sure about it. I wish i could’ve […]
Tag:
Exercises
I’ve come to the realization that living with these suicidal thoughts will probably never go away. This is my first time trying out an online community for suicide/depression or what have you because I feel I am running out of options. I feel I have no one who I can talk to in my life about these issues due to the deep shame that comes with them. Even though I feel I have a good support system, I don’t like feeling like I’m burdening those I love with all this I go through on a daily basis.
Getting to the point, I’ve realized that I am too scared to actually […]
So I woke up another morning. I saw my therapist this morning and told her nothing of my plans to kill myself or how bad the urge has gotten. How much I think about death. That I don’t see myself making it another month. What’s the point in counseling?? You can’t be honest…you tell them that you want to die and you will be thrown in a mental hospital which in my experience does nothing but make you wanna cut more and wanna die. I’ve done what I was supposed to do..i got “help”, I take the medicine everyday and I do all the coping […]