Am I supposed to stop thinking about suicide when I’m “cured” or am I just supposed to stop telling people how I really feel. Because I’m really getting tired of the (raised eyebrow) how are you doing? (concerned crinkle of the forehead) How are you feeling today? Really frakkin’ tired.
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I have been cut free for a year as of last week. I have never known any cutters other than myself, but that maybe because I never told anyone . No why would they expect that the laughing funny guy is just a mask to hide my rotting face behind.Even though its nearly killed me several times I still want to cut. When I cut I pretend I was a surgeon and I was just performing an operation, nothing was solved but nothing mattered.Does this ever go away? Its funny, such a little piece of metal can control me so easily.I cut  off one eyebrow […]
My name’s Jnina.
My name is Jnina. Kinda ugly name isn’t it? I think so too. I like to be called Nina. I don’t know where I should start. So i’ll confess everything. My name is Jnina, and im 14 this year. I was born in New York. My mom had me at 20, and I was the last child she bore. I have 3 other siblings. Out of the four, I am the only one that didn’t get enough attention. I was a mistake. My own mom didn’t know she was pregnant with me, 10 months after my older sister was born. But […]
Did some chores earlier and I’m drained. Windex, Pine Sol, Soap and Pledge all help make cleaning possible. Also make the lungs burn with a mask on to boot. I’m feeling tired and a tad weak. The kind of tired that you’re unable to sleep. Add onto that some anxiety. This brain takes a lot to quiet it down and the solution is to overwork till I can no longer hold a lot of weight. Till my heart pounds like I’ve done a dash. Till my hips feel like water. Thankfully I didn’t do that kind of work. The kind that aggravates the hips. But […]