heavy duty shit in therapy yesterday. rejection, dismissal, self hatred etc etc. my psyche is fighting tooth and nail to keep some horrible thing secret. what that is i don’t know. saw the shrink last week. another appointment and a new script. losing faith in pharmaceuticals. there doesn’t seem to be anything out there for me. left the office angry and upset. felt rejected, dismissed, discarded. why exactly i don’t know. the doc didn’t do or say anything particularly egregious. it was like there was something i desperately wanted to communicate but i couldn’t find the words. then my 20 minutes was up. go away. […]
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Fatal Outcome
does anyone know if 1500mg of amitriptyline is enough to induce a  fatal outcome?  This is what I plan to take this weekend but need to know lf it takes a long time as well.  I have limited time alone and going away would arouse suspicion.  I do not want to be saved this time, I cannot fail.
I have read that this pill is one of the most effective but it varies what I read on how much, I just want to know how long it takes before you can be saved and will it be painful.  I don’t mind pain, but again I don’t want to arouse suspicion.  I want […]